Maybe I should talk with God
Depression got me on the clock (Yeah)
I been livin in the dark, got a knife shoved deep up in my heart (Yeah)
Loves nice at the start, but it always seems to fall apart (Yeah)
I've been longing for connection but I can never keep a broad (Yeah)
Seeking happiness thru others cuz I can never love myself (Yeah)
I been battling these demons, sometimes my mind get trapped in Hell (Yeah)
I been workin on my health (Yeah)
2 Year sober, and I did it without the 12 steps
But
Depression setting in, my head is letting in
These thoughts of ending it, my f*ckin confidence is spreading thin
Up late night like I'm Letterman, I need a couple sedatives
These anxious thoughts get too damn repetitive
Lately I been on some grown shit
Dealin with my own shit I been goin thru since 06
The year my father left me and my bro shit
I been feeling on my own since
Insecurities get the best of me
I eagerly wait to rest in piece
Suicidal thoughts be tempting me
But I can't give up on destiny
I just want the best for the ones I love
I share my pain so someone knows they're not alone