DeDrinique Barnes - Why Lyrics

Dear diary
I'm sitting up in my bed
I'm sitting here all alone
Thoughts up in my head
Like where did I go wrong

We were so much better than this
You built me up
Just to break me down again
And I hate when I feel like this
When I get numb and I start to reminisce

Whoa
Why did I deserve this
And I know I know nobody's perfect
But you you did me dirty
You said you'll never hurt me

And I
I don't get it
Like you don't you don't hurt people that you love
And if you can just easily hurt someone you say you love
You never loved them

You lied you lied
You told me so much lies
With no remorse
Looked me dead up in my eye
And you wiped my face
From every tear I cried
Only to find out you had people on the side

And
I fell deep
I fell real deep
Was up under your love spell
It was like you were controlling me
Now I feel bad
I feel real bad
I don't wanna end things
But I see that is what's best for me

And you've been doing
What was best for you the whole time
And should I feel bad for doing me?
Like yo
You- pshhh
Man
You wasted my time
You don't get time back man you just

You got me sitting here going crazy
We used to talk on the phone on a daily
And I've been feeling all alone here lately
Can somebody wake me from this dream
This can't be

Reality
Gets real and realer everyday
I no longer believe anything you say
And if you weren't happy here
You could've told me
And it would've been hard
But I would've set you free

Like you made me
Ohhh
I'm getting all mushy just thinking about it
You made me the happiest person
It was like home
But if you weren't happy
I would have let you go so you can be happy
It's crazy

I won't seek for no revenge
Things have ended
You did what you did to me
You were my bestfriend
I held you down when times got hard
But you did me wrong
You broke my heart

And I still love you
I'll always love you
But I can't keep on letting you treat me
Like I'm nothing
You said you're sorry
And I forgive you
But the hardest thing has been
Trying to forget you

And when it comes to love
There's no handbook
There's no warning sign
You just jump in
And
And you probably moved on
And I want you to be happy
But as for me
I