David Kushner - The Dichotomy Album Lyrics

Is this as good as it gets?
Or is this all I know?
It feels like the bends
All the highs and the lows

I'm comfortable here in the chaos just like you
I'm begging for more when it wears off oh it's true

Oh, baby, when I love you
Your body feels a little like drug use
It's everything I need but it hurts too
Couldn't even quit it if I want to
I don't want to
Ain't no high better than mine
Ain't no high better than mine
When I love you
And I do

Who's gonna say goodbye?
I don't know if I can be that brave
If it was up to me I'd die
Before I'd ever walk away

I'm comfortable here in the chaos just like you
Begging for more when it wears off, oh, it's true
It's true

Oh, baby, when I love you
Your body feels a little like drug use
It's everything I need, but it hurts too
Couldn't even quit it if I want to
I don't want to
Ain't no high better than mine
Ain't no high better than mine
When I love you
And I do
Ain't no high better than mine
Ain't no high better than mine
When I love you
And I do

Oh, baby, when I love you
Your body feels a little like drug use
It's everything I need, but it hurts too
Couldn't even quit it if I want to
I don't want to
Ain't no high better than mine
Ain't no high better than mine
When I love you
And I do

Sipping on the poison I don't wanna see
Something in my heart that's killing on me
Stealing all that I got
Lord, I don't wanna stop
Feigning for the dark side, down on my knees
Praying to a God that I wanna believe
I look to Heaven a lot
But Hell is coming in hot

Shadows fall over me
Strike me blind, still I see
The Devil calls (ooh-ooh), he never sleeps (ooh-ooh)
And he left his name and number (ooh-ooh)
Said, "Just tell me what you need" (ooh-ooh)

Ooh-ooh-ooh, I'm outnumbered, yeah
Ooh-ooh-ooh, I'm so close to going under

Sipping on the poison I don't wanna see
Something in my heart that's killing on me
Stealing all that I got
Lord, I don't wanna stop
Feigning for the dark side, down on my knees
Praying to a God that I wanna believe
I look to Heaven a lot
But Hell is coming in hot

And I feel it coming
And I feel it coming
And I feel it coming
Hell is coming in hot

Livin' in (ooh-ooh) the in between (ooh-ooh)
Of pearly gates (ooh-ooh) and city streets (ooh-ooh)
They both reach for me

Ooh-ooh-ooh, I'm outnumbered, yeah
Ooh, I'm so close to going under

Sipping on the poison I don't wanna see
Something in my heart that's killing on me
Stealing all that I got
Lord, I don't wanna stop
Feigning for the dark side, down on my knees
Praying to a God that I wanna believe
I look to Heaven a lot
But Hell is coming in hot

And I feel it coming
And I feel it coming
And I feel it coming
But hell is coming in hot
And I feel it coming
And I feel it coming
And I feel it coming
But hell is coming in hot

Sipping on the poison I don't wanna see
Something in my heart that's killing on me
I look to Heaven a lot
But Hell is coming in hot

I fantasize to feel you like a bullet
And all your layers to the fullest
But the heavens won't condone it, mm
You deceivin', wayward woman
You're a false prophet at the pulpit
The condition of your soul is erodin'

Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control, yeah, as you pull me close
Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control

As your flatter talk shivers down my spine
I hear the Holy One exposin' all the lies
Lord, forgive me, I know my flesh needs to die
She has the lips red as cherry wine
A poisonous kiss, she's part of the swine
My salvation won't be sacrificed

Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control, yeah, as you pull me close
Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control

But I don't wanna stop, yeah, I just need to see
If your love's the truth or the spirit of deceit
No, I don't wanna talk, baby, give it all to me
There's honey drippin' from your teeth

Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control, yeah, as you pull me close
Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control
Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control, yeah, as you pull me close
Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical
Oh, I'm gonna lose control

(Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical)
But I don't wanna stop, yeah, I just need to see
(Oh, I'm gonna lose control, yeah, as you pull me close)
If your love's the truth or the spirit of deceit
(Wrap me in your skin and bones, yeah, you're electrical)
No, I don't wanna talk, baby, give it all to me
(Oh, I'm gonna lose control)
There's honey drippin' from your teeth

How do I begin?
How do I cope?
Some people sin
Some people don't
What we had was thin
So we couldn't survive
Bad times can win
While good things can die

I was the hero, but you get the glory
Now I'm the villain inside of your story
I was the saint, you used to adore me
Now I'm the villain inside of your story

You're walking through Heaven
I'm walking through flames
This can't be mended
It won't be the same
Thank you for nothing (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Thanks for the pain (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
This is what love brings (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Maybe I'll wait (ooh-ooh, ooh)

I was the hero, but you get the glory
Now I'm the villain inside of your story
I was the saint, you used to adore me
Now I'm the villain inside of your story

Oh-oh-oh, ooh
I bled, I bled for free
Oh-oh-oh, ooh
Your wretched victory
Oh-oh-oh, ooh
I bled, I bled for free
Oh-oh-oh, ooh
Gave every part of me

I was the hero, but you get the glory
Now I'm the villain inside of your story
I was the saint, you used to adore me
Now I'm the villain inside of your story

I was the hero, but you get the glory
Now I'm the villain inside of your story
I was the saint, you used to adore me
Now I'm the villain inside of your story

I wish we could've walked on water
I wish we'd never touched the tide
I wish we could've swam a bit farther
We're drownin' tonight

Deep in the ocean now
Ain't no way we're ever gettin' out
Honey, just pull me down
We've given up, so don't make a sound

You and me ruined each other, baby
You and me will never recover, baby
You and me decided to suffer, baby
You and me won't pray for each other, baby

Loving in this wasteland
We'll never be free
Darling, this is taking
My soul from me

Deep in the ocean now
Ain't no way we're ever gettin' out
Honey, just pull me down
We've given up, so don't make a sound

You and me ruined each other, baby
You and me will never recover, baby
You and me decided to suffer, baby
You and me won't pray for each other, baby

Highly deranged love
Did you do it all for me?
I took parts that I want
And now I'm running free

You and me ruined each other, baby
You and me will never recover, baby
You and me decided to suffer, baby
You and me won't pray for each other, baby

Are we biding our time
Eating lies from the vine?
Act like everything's fine
I see the end in your eyes

Love is gonna kill us
Is that okay?
I feel it as it builds up
The sweet decay

Oh, I need you, flaws and all
We're not demons, angels fall
Fell from Eden, that's my fault
We're still breathing, sinner's crawl

This love is gonna kill us
Is that okay?
I feel it as it builds up
The sweet decay
This love is gonna kill us

I miss the look you would give
Being wrapped in your skin
Under all this tension
Is our beautiful sins

This love is gonna kill us
Is that okay? Oh, oh
I feel it as it builds up
The sweet decay

Oh, I need you, flaws and all
We're not demons, angels fall
Fell from Eden, that's my fault
We're still breathing, sinner's crawl

This love is gonna kill us
Is that okay?
I feel it as it builds up
The sweet decay
This love is gonna kill us
This love is gonna kill us

You make me not feel like a man
Keep throwing stones for while you can
I know myself and who I am
That story's end is calloused hands

There not a soul ever here
I've only grown from the tears

I'm the dead man in this war
But, baby, I've been here before
There's beauty hidden in the gore
Yeah, I'm the dead man in this war

Do you remember September?
Do you remember September?

You threw me back into the fire
I screamed while your smile was getting wider, ohh-oh
Demons and angels in my choir, mmm
Singing about what I desire

There not a soul ever here, ohh-oh
I've only grown from the tears, ooh-ohh-ohh

I'm the dead man in this war
But, baby, I've been here before
There's beauty hidden in the gore
Yeah, I'm the dead man in this war, ooh-ooh

Do you remember September?
Do you remember September?

Wade on, wade on
Give me back my old salvation
Wade on, wade on
Give me back my old salvation
Wade on, wade on
Give me back my old salvation
Wade on, wade on
Yeah

I'm the dead man in this war
But, baby, I've been here before (I've been here before)
There's beauty hidden in the gore (yeah)
Yeah, I'm the dead man in this war

(Hidden in the gore, yea-yeah)

There's beauty hidden in the gore
I'm the dead man in this war

I look for love in empty places
I get distracted when I'm prayin'
I talk to God and dance with Satan
I wish it was my imagination

Oh, Father, can you wake me up
From the man that I thought I was?
Oh, Father, can you wake me up?
'Cause it's bigger than flesh and blood
Flesh and blood
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh

Oh Lord, the silence feels betrayin'
Words don't express the heart decayin'
Death to your voice, my faith is wavin'
It's never been this dark in ages

Oh, Father, can you wake me up
From the man that I thought I was?
Oh, Father, can you wake me up?
'Cause it's bigger than flesh and blood
Flesh and blood
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh

I was blinded by the lust I felt
Trapped inside of a living hell
Waiting for you to wake me up
I was lost even to myself
Trapped inside of a living hell
Waiting for you to wake me up

Oh, Father, can you wake me up, mm
From the man that I thought I was?
Flesh and blood
Flesh and blood

I'll bleed for you
I'll bear the bruise
If I feel the way you do
Oh, I'd be someone new
Someone new

Save me from the sickness that I love
Take me to your sweet oblivion
I'm kneeling at your altar
I'm down here on my knees
Take me to your sweet oblivion

Gladly, I await the knife
Slipped between these ribs of mine
With you, there's no dying shame
Just a breathless whispered grace
Kings and choirs sing your name
Angels standing at your gates
If precious blood is what it takes
I'm praying, won't you

Save me from the sickness that I love
Take me to your sweet oblivion
I'm kneeling at your altar
I'm down here on my knees
Take me to your sweet oblivion

Take me to your
Take me to your
Take me to your
Take me to your
Sweet oblivion

You're wearing my halo
Heavens divide
You're fooling the angels with your sweet eyes
You're preaching a fable
Of the innocent one
From oath to betrayal, look what you've done

If the waves call my name
Then I won't go down alone
Way down we go, oh-ooh

Oh, darling, we're buried at sea
Our fate rests down in a mystery
Dry bones sinking in the dead, dead water
While the earth grows darker, my dear (oh)
Oh, darling, we're buried at sea
Our sins lay cold in the depths beneath
Hell don't need another lawless martyr
And the Lord don't barter, I fear (oh)

Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh

I suffered in silence
You ate from the vine
Oh, I'll spill the truth and let the world decide

If the waves call my name
Then I won't go down alone
Way down we go

Oh, darling, we're buried at sea
Our fate rests down in a mystery
Dry bones sinking in the dead, dead water
While the earth grows darker, my dear (oh)
Oh, darling, we're buried at sea
Our sins lay cold in the depths beneath
Hell don't need another lawless martyr
And the Lord don't barter, I fear (oh)

It's too late for your atonement
You found the box but lost the key (help)
Honey, don't be so naïve

Oh, darling, we're buried at sea
Our fate rests down in a mystery
Dry bones sinking in the dead, dead water
While the earth grows darker, my dear (oh)
Oh, darling, we're buried at sea
Our sins lay cold in the depths beneath
Hell don't need another lawless martyr
And the Lord don't barter, I fear (oh, hey)

Ooh-ooh, ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh
(Whoa)
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh (whoa)

I met the devil Sunday mornin' with his hands in the air
He blew his paycheck on the plate that they were passin'
He's testifyin' in the light, but he was heartless in prayer
He had the spirit and expensive taste in fashion

I'm the one that you came and slaughtered
You spin me around
I was lookin' for livin' water
You just let me drown

I put my faith in a sinner's town
Land of the free chained to the ground
When I look for kindness now
Humankind just lets me down

Oh, oh, oh-oh, oh
Oh, my heaven's cussing me out
Oh, oh, oh-oh, oh
Humankind just lets me down

They lost the message in a bottle, now it's covered in blood
They sell a savin' just to make a great commission
We love the ones who hurt us, and we hurt the ones that we love
We're sacrificin' one another for tradition

I'm the one that you came and slaughtered
You spin me around
I was lookin' for livin' water
You just let me drown

I put my faith in a sinner's town
Land of the free chained to the ground
When I look for kindness now
Humankind just lets me down

Oh, oh, oh-oh, oh
Oh, my heaven's cussing me out
Oh, oh, oh-oh, oh
Humankind just lets me down

When it's all said and done
I'm just a man, you're just a woman
So take my hand
I'm only human
I need you to take me

Home
Home
Home
Humankind just lets me down

Oh, my love
Hear me now
You're in my blood
You put me into the ground
Moving on
Tears on fire
Burn me like the California sun

There's a gravity pulling at our hearts
There's a light that's cutting through the darkness
We're the rose that never fell apart
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime

Oh, my love
Where're you now?
We've become
Ghosts that roam in this town
Let this rust
Let this live
Should we run
From all of the sins we commit

There's a gravity pulling at our hearts
There's a light that's cutting through the darkness
We're the rose that never fell apart
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime

There's a gravity pulling at our hearts
There's a light that's cutting through the darkness
We're the rose that never fell apart
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime
In another universe
Oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh
Baby, we could last a lifetime

There's a gravity pulling at our hearts
There's a light that's cutting through the darkness
We're the rose that never fell apart
Baby, we could last a lifetime

Been living in a coffin for too damn long
Sinnin' ain't stoppin', we choose what's wrong
Hidin' from the world, our love's a fraud
Evil's at work, the darkness won

Oh, you wanna start a fire?
Oh, you wanna try and burn my soul?
Go ahead and spark the lighter
Heaven sees through your skin and bones

I'm burnin' this bridge that you crossed
Learnin' to live with love that's lost
Ain't no going back to the innocence
Anything exists in the ignorance

Oh, you wanna start a fire?
Oh, you wanna try and burn my soul?
Go ahead and spark the lighter
Heaven sees through your skin and bones

Go lie, truth is gonna shine through
Tongue-tied, trip over your words too
Goodbye, Hell is gonna love you
Hell is gonna love you
Darling, therе's nowhere left to run away
Falling, wasn't too far from gracе
(Yeah)
(Yeah)

Been running too long, tryna catch my breath
There's a war up against my heart and head
And there ain't always blood in a fight
But you bring me back to the light
But you bring me back to the light (light)

Oh, why? (Oh, why?), oh, why? (Oh, why?)
Am I standing on the edge of my darker side?
Oh, I (oh, I), oh, I (oh, I)
I know it's so wrong, but it feels so right
Oh, my (oh, my), oh, my (oh, my)
There's so many things I'm tempted by
But you bring me back to the light
Oh, my

I'm spiraling in and out of control
There's a war no one sees inside my soul
The Lord exposes the deepest lies
You bring me back to the light
Yeah, you bring me back to the light

Oh, why? (Oh, why?), oh, why? (Oh, why?)
Am I standing on the edge of my darker side?
Oh, I (oh, I), oh, I (oh, I)
I know it's so wrong, but it feels so right
Oh, my (oh, my), oh, my (oh, my)
There's so many things I'm tempted by
But you bring me back to the light
Yeah, you bring me back to the light (light)

Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh
But you bring me back to the light
Oh, my

California nights
Praying all the time
Where do I belong?
How do I be strong?
Born into a fight
Staring at the sky
Scared of what's above
Oh, what will I become?

Nothing's wrong but it ain't right
What's this battle deep inside?
Oh, my eyes say it all, oh
I see the dawn, there ain't no light
Mama, come and hold me tight
'Cause I don't think I'll survive, oh
'Cause I don't think I'll survive
Yeah, yeah

What am I inside?
A war that I can't find
I don't feel at home
Dead in the catacomb
I scream to God at night
Afraid that I just might
Be talking to myself
And living in my Hell

Nothing's wrong but it ain't right
What's this battle deep inside?
Oh, my eyes say it all, oh
I see the dawn, there ain't no light
Mama, come and hold me tight
'Cause I don't think I'll survive, oh
'Cause I don't think I'll survive
Yeah, yeah

Living takes
Silent roars
Is this fate
Or something more?

'Cause nothing's wrong but it ain't right
What's this battle deep inside?
Oh, my eyes say it all, oh
I see the dawn, there ain't no light
Mama, come and hold me tight
'Cause I don't think I'll survive, oh
'Cause I don't think I'll survive
Yeah, yeah

What good is a life consumed by this world?
This world
Exchanging this time but losing your soul
Your soul

Oh, I've been holding on to this for too long
For too long
Oh, how did I get here when things that dissolve
That dissolve

The Devil's got his eyes on me
I've been through hell but I won't be deceived
He'll walk around for hours
But He knows He can't devour
The Devil's got his eyes on me
I've bled to tell you what your eyes don't see
This story's getting louder
And He knows that He's a coward

Don't be bound by fear, oh, that's what he wants
That's what he wants
I know it gets tiring but you need to run
You need to run

Oh, I've been holding on to this for too long
For too long
Oh, how did I get here when things that dissolve
That dissolve

The Devil's got his eyes on me
I've been through hell but I won't be deceived
He'll walk around for hours
But He knows He can't devour
The Devil's got his eyes on me
I've bled to tell you what your eyes don't see
This story's getting louder
And He knows that He's a coward
The Devil's got his eyes on me
I've been through hell but I won't be deceived
He'll walk around for hours
But He knows He can't devour
The Devil's got his eyes on me
I've bled to tell you what your eyes don't see
This story's getting louder
And He knows that He's a coward
The Devil's got his eyes on me
I've bled to tell you what your eyes don't see
This story's getting louder
And He knows that He's a coward

Telling myself I won't go there
Oh, but I know that I won't care
Tryna wash away all the blood I've spilt
This lust is a burden that we both share
Two sinners can't atone from a lone prayer
Souls tied, intertwined by our pride and guilt

(Ooh)
There's darkness in the distance
From the way that I've been livin'
But I know I can't resist it

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
You and I drink the poison from the same vine
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
Hidin' all of our sins from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time

Tellin' myself it's the last time
Can you spare any mercy that you might find
If I'm down on my knees again?
Deep down, way down, Lord, I try
Try to follow your light, but it's night time
Please, don't leave me in the end

(Ooh)
There's darkness in the distance
I'm beggin' for forgiveness (ooh)
But I know I might resist it, oh

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
You and I drink the poison from the same vine
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
Hidin' all of our sins from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
You and I drink the poison from the same vine
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
Hidin' all of our sins from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time