Dave from Work - Contradiction Lyrics

(Yeah, Workplace)
I spoke to an angel, she told me to keep my head up
I told her, "Don't worry 'bout me, I'm working on getting my rep up"
"But Dave, you're just too preppy"
"Nah, nigga, I'm just irregular"
"If I don't make a difference then these streets'll be the death of us"
Contemplating, making connections with different sources
Sell this weed or abort
Find a host to extort
I've been dealing with leaches ever since I moved down to fourth and Burleigh
Slipped between, her thighs
In a city where everyone says, "Get out." But can't show you a f*cking exit
I tread a path of deception, got no one to break this bread with
Alone, but surrounded
Drowning in my depression
Diamonds everywhere I step as I melted underneath this pressure
Thought backwards about these Gods and thought godly about myself
You can keep your contributions I ain't ask for your f*cking help
Took the loss of my first love to get some shit straight through my head
I took a bottle full of pills and a rope around my neck
Ten toes down as I'm swinging
And to myself I confess
Your death'll be seen as weakness
Collapsing underneath all the stress
Ten toes down as I'm swinging
My death'll be seen as weakness
I like, good girls but f*cking with bad women
I know that shit's contradicting
I'm hoping that I'll forget 'em
The moment this Henny sink in
Carry round their heart pieces
She said she loved me this weekend
But truly I don't believe her, I don't- see it
'Cause seeing makes you believe in
Second chances, to me is like getting stabbed and you bleed
As she kisses you on the cheek
She swears that she didn't mean it but now you've been too depleted to find the love that you seek
Ten toes down as I'm swinging
And to myself I confess
Your death'll be seen as weakness
Collapsing underneath all the stress
Ten toes down as I'm swinging
My death'll be seen as weakness