Note to Self Video (MV)

I don't know what else to do inside of this world
I tried my hardest, poured my heart out
Took my time, and waited longer
I'm still stuck and confused, yeah
I'm not the one to compare
But some things don't seem fair
I do everything that I'm post to
But I still remain right here
I'm tryna be a legend
But this game won't wanna let me in, no
I'm tryna be a King again
Stuck and f*cked, I'm over it
Tryna help my brothers win
Post to be the leader and don't feed 'em
What the f*ck is this
Promise I'm tryin' my hardest
Promise I'm tryin' my hardest
I don't even wanna win
Wanna keep my promises
But this game is cold
Nobody care 'bout you unless you're in
No
No
And they say to check up
But nobody check up
This ain't what it used to be
More than depression
This ain't sadness, this is madness
This is me going mad and shit
I just get so mad at shit
That I know that I can fix, but I won't
Won't it, that's so obvious
And honestly, I'm ready to build walls again
But I ain't strong as him
I promise I'ma be there when I get the shit, yeah