D4oesz - I Still Love You Lyrics

Mhmm Hmmm
I don't know
No more
I tried
I tried
I don't know no more
Lately I been loving from a distance
Nowadays feeling shallow with a friendship
Existence feeling slimmer than this pen is
Pretending I been living goal and inches
But its so far away, old scars still harming me
Chest feeling numb my heart decayed
I been losing all my cards to play
You don't even know, how it is for a young nigga like me
Feeling so lost, feeling like I'm trapped behind walls
And everybody here to sight see
I can't even speak, people don't hear what I say
Feeling like a shadow I fade
Even when we talk then we just miscommunicate
So what's the point of speaking if we gonna disagree
Cuz everybody gotta different view of the problem
But when we talk about it then it's not a problem
So I been going back and forward with the options
If I should let it go or I continue being bothered
Probably, never gonna drop it if I'm being honest
Because I was the that was honest
Treated like a broken promise
I done let 'em off the hook after my real wasn't acknowledged
They done threw me to the wolves after I did 'em all a solid
I still love, I still love you
Won't give up, I won't give up on you
After everything you put me through
You done cut my veins, My blood over you
After all this pain, I'll still hug you
'Cause at the end none changed
I still love you
Feeling dead for a minute
Pretending that y'all didn't even mess up my living
I get it, it was a bigger mess than intended
For siblings, y'all didn't even check on my living
In the end, left me in the wind
Went from living in a house to living with a friend
Sleeping on his couch trying to hustle for the ends
In a one bed apartment let the struggling begin
I lost my sister whip and now I ain' gotta car
Work a 16 hour shift after work I gotta walk
A Four hour walk for a drive that ain' that far
I done cried so many nights to the sky I talk to Lord
Asking for a change, I done gave up everything
If you ask 'em all about it I am still the one to blame
It's seven years later, still wrapped up in the chains
Cuz they never paid a cost for the currency exchanged
Bets believe that it changed my life
For better and for worse I had to pay that price
Walking to them lawyers had to pay off strikes
If you deal yo own hand then you can play yo cards rights
I was swinging for the fences but they threw me all strikes
I made it through them trenches living in them hard nights
No one gave me hand outs not even lending advice
Lately I been mean, my scars is from when I was nice
Uh huh
I still love, I still love you
Won't give up, I won't give up on you
After everything you put me through
You done cut my veins, My blood over you
After all this pain, I'll still hug you
'Cause at the end none changed
I still love you