D4oesz - Awkward Smile Lyrics

The pressure weighing heavy, hard on my soul
I feel nickel plated but my heart made of gold
Medusa love confusing us, turned me to stone
When you look in my eyes you don't know me no more
Or ever, forever I'm giving too much
Trying to make it better for whoever I claim to love
But I'm exhausted from always trying too much
So when they calling, I'm stalling before I pick up
Nice to see ya, it's been awhile
Hard to speak of the reasons I won't come around
You should see us, turned to strangers
You don't know us now
I can see it in ya face when you look at me with yo awkward smile
Really I'm running from talking
Cause I don't wanna use caution
When I be telling you everything that you have cost me
Feeling like Jesus when speaking on people that cross me
Now the old me doesn't exist he's dead in coffin
Carrying more than I bargained
Hero take all in, when I take all in
Feeling defeated my knees is the reason I'm walking
Speak on the evils then people don't wanna be bothered
When it's they garbage
I'm left to clean up the mess that they brought in
Like a janitor standing stranded
I'm sick of the chances
That I been giving to people that don't even notice the damage
I'm giving my heart to the people that's taking advantage
Talking bout love but I'm not talking about the romances
This for my friends, my family tree
Planted tragedies, wish I could take it all back
Back to the day they came after me
Mama is dead with no grave, I should've been casualty
Instead I had to leave, taking us back to a family
Damaged bout half of me
Nice to see ya, it's been awhile
Hard to speak of the reasons I won't come around
You should see us, turned to strangers
You don't know us now
I can see it in ya face when you look at me with yo awkward smile