You let me down
I hear the sound of your voice
I just hate that noise
I kept you safe and sound
And now I'm laying on the ground
Alcohol inside my mouth
I tried to call but you declined them all
Now im sitting here with no apology i tried to give it all of me
Im broke I live in poverty
You had to run away from me
You Got me going crazy
I'm addicted to your love
And for a second girl you saved me
You betrayed me
I put this gun on safety
I Said im sorry for the choices
That I'm making
But you wont spend no time with me
You said youd spend your life with me
I guess that means you lied to me
And now I got anxiety
Im bound to be a failure
I gave you pleasure for a short timre
Thought you we're my life lines
We can say its been forever
But i guess that nothing ever seems to lasts
I tried to win you back
And now im making bad desicions
But your to blind to see my vison
Its a vivid image with a big description, but you dont listen
To a word I have to say
But I dont have no time to f*cking play
Whyd you have walk away
Now im just livin day by day
I tried to get you back
Wondering what I lacked
Was this all your little act
I loved you thats a fact
But you walked the walk
I just wanted to talk
All the stuff I bought
But you did not
Now Im living in pain
Every single day
Destroying my own brain
Is that what they say?
Is this what you wanted?
Is this what you need
To make me feel
Like im some sort of freak
Like this is all my fault
Like I caused my own pain
Now every f*cking day
I remember that shame
Of what happened that night
I got a little drunk
You said it isnt right
And I f*cked up
I was pissed off
And I was torn up
Tried to drive away
But you had me stuck
I tried to just leave
But I couldnt keep my peace
And I broke down right there
In the f*cking street
I still have this pain
Boiling deep inside
I think its time for change
But I cant hold my reply's
Up at 3am
Thinking somethin different
Oh my god how could I be so Ignorant
I tried what I could
I tried my f*cking best
Where did that leave me
Im f*cking depressed
I would change it all
Waiting for your call
Man I hit the wall
And had a large fall
Now im down on the ground
Trying to get up
Trying to find a way to get the f*ck up
I still wanna try
But I dont see the point
Gonna sit in silence
And roll a fat joint