Cypher Unknown - Fragile Lyrics

Im tryin hard to write these words
Held back front flip in reverse
I'll take you way back when I saw the hearse
I'll show you pain constant reoccurrence
I shed the tears like a f*cking flood
Im sick of feeling like I ain't no good
Full share of grief yeah for what its worth
Its a damn struggle fighting on since birth
Tried so many times to make my fate work
Even I get fragile tho to break the hell curse
Motivation its a f*cking damn cert
Couldn't stop the pain even though it hurts
I've Been broken then built myself up
Renaissance of the self worth
Strike back the weak be the first
Show the mother f*ckers what you deserve
Face down my father, drowned, dead
I try and think of the all last words he said
Picturesque canals yeah in my head
Next turn walk back instead
Rach crying weeping on the phone
2yrs later her cancer to the bone
Remission f*cked not comin home
Only 26 now dying alone
Mum wasting away from day one
Wont be long she'll forget her own son
Forget that pain, it'll be gone
Last grief we shared is undone
I dont know how to erase the past
I dont know how long all this pain will last
All I know time is running fast
Break out, conceal the fact
Remain right here, distract
Return, disperse, collect
Face down, disease, impact
Cold truth, my soul, intact
Chosen this only shit path of hope
Life tainted in the f*cking microscope
Press the damn pause on the grief remote
Make a f*cking noise ripping out my throat
Selling myself out for the dope
Inner self burns out take a note
Reckoning yeah like the devils coke
Unholy f*cker just like the pope
Feel the beat now we're coming to the end
Clench your fists now look as we descend
Feel the trance now feel the f*ckin base bend
Neck it hurts yeah from the spine f*cking end
I dont know how to erase the past
I dont know how long all this pain will last
All I know time is running fast
Break out, conceal the fact
Remain right here, distract
Return, disperse, collect
Face down, disease, impact
Cold truth, my soul, intact...