Cryptic Catharsis - Under the Veneer of Normalcy Lyrics

Spent what seemed like centuries blaming only myself
The ground crumbles beneath me consistently
A hollow being grasping for meaning
For some reason I found it easy to hate myself instead of anyone else

Under the veneer of normalcy
I have to accept what will never be
I believe I deserve to be know but I feel so alone
Under the veneer of normalcy

Cursed with constant burden
Overflowing
Unmendable, I'm breaking at the seams
I've inscribed into my flesh countless bibles of my own through this life
Pinned down against a cold concrete floor that followed me forever

Under the veneer of normalcy
I have to accept what will never be
I believe I deserve to be know but I feel so alone
Under the veneer of normalcy

I keep swimming farther from shore even
When I can't keep at it anymore
Cornered, caricatured, constantly crossing lines
Mirrored, wishing to leave it all behind
Wanting solace and just to be forgotten
I hate the sound ticking clocks but they're always where I'm wanted
Away from here, it's a different white noise
The overwhelming need for silence
Or even the stillness to be able to hear a ticking if there was one

Under the veneer of normalcy
I have to accept what will never be
I believe I deserve to be know but I feel so alone
Under the veneer of normalcy