Crr - MOM Lyrics

So this is rock bottom, the lows of the lows
Where you're buried in problems with nowhere to go
They say it gets better, but how should I know?
They call this rock bottom, but I call it home
I call it home
Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
But I do know what it's like to be a witness to kills
Mama told me she loved me, I'm thinking this isn't real
I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
Welcome to the bottom of hell, they say pain is a prison
Let me out of my cell, you say you proud of me
But you don't know me that well
Sitting in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases, said you coming to get us
Then call a minute later just to tell us you're not
I'm humiliated, I'm in a room with a parent that I don't really know
Some lady in the corner watching us while she's taking notes
I don't get it, mom, don't you wanna watch your babies grow?
I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is no
But you won't do it, will you?
You gon' keep poppin' till them pills kill you
I know you're gone, but I can still feel you
So, this rock bottom, the lows of the lows
Where you're buried in problems with nowhere to go
They say it gets better, but how should I know?
They call this rock bottom, but I call it home
I call it home
I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing
Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
But why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?
You should've been there when I graduated
Told me you loved me and congratulations
Instead you left us at the window waiting
Where you at, mom?
We're too young to understand. Where you at, huh?
Yeah, I know them drugs, they got you held captive
I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured
Some say it's fun to get the high, but I am not laughing
And what you don't realize and what you're not grasping
That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand it
I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened
I thought that maybe I'd feel better as time passes
If you really cared for me then where you at then?
So this is rock bottom, the lows of the lows
Where you're buried in problems with nowhere to go
They say it gets better, but how should I know?
They call this rock bottom, but I call it home
I call it home