Crizzy White - October (feat. Swaine) Lyrics

She said it's for my benefit
Said she's leaving I'm a mess again
I'm too dependent on just living for her compliments
I can't stomach being numb so I'm caught in this
And I can't find a fix
She said it's over 'cause I always act emotionless
Said she need someone to talk to not a therapist
Girl I'm sorry I'm not helping I'm just numb again
And I know
I'm not the best at holding your hand
I'm not the best at sharing a kiss
I'm alone even though I got friends
But you know
I'll never let you fall again
I'll call back in a minute not ten
I'll still love you even at the end
I hope you're with me even at the end
After everything we been through I hope we're on the map
Scared to send a message to you waiting on replies, filled with dread
You're the one I see when I close my eyes and go to bed
Yeah, I'm dreaming 'bout you
I can't breathe without you
I pray to every power that you stay around, I got you
I pray we never break apart when shit turns sour
And I'm counting down the hours till I see you again
Bring you flowers, say I'm sorry now I'm peacing again
Until I f*ck up and get you mad with beefing again
I apologize forever, I need you in my corner
What would I do without you
Don't wanna know it, and
And I know
I'm not the best at holding your hand
I'm not the best at sharing a kiss
I'm alone even though I got friends
But you know
I'll never let you fall again
I'll call back in a minute not ten
I'll still love you even at the end
I'm sorry I'm not sober
It's been raining through October
Anytime you need me closer
Say the word and I'll come over
'Cause I've been alone with my thoughts too long
And I'm tired of making these songs
Questioning how it wrong
And I know
I'm not the best at holding your hand
I'm not the best at sharing a kiss
I'm alone even though I got friends
But you know
I'll never let you fall again
I'll call back in a minute not ten
I'll still love you even at the end
On this October, I'll surrender
You can have it all my damsel
Just give me one call I'll answer
Girl I wanna be your heart's defender