cozycarty - Doomed&Blessed Lyrics

Every night I sleep tight with my demons
Hard to live with all the shit I be feeling
Laying in my bed looking at the ceiling
Dreaming yet my heart is freezing

Why couldn't I live with no stress?
Why couldn't she say yes?
Why couldn't I overthink less?
Why do I feel like a mess?

Why?

Cause I'm a trippy motherf*cker with a cutter to my gut and I never gave a f*ck about no guns and butter
I'm the rain in the summer so you might discover I'm the Judas f*cking up your last supper
I'm a sucker for pain so let me explain why they keep calling me insane in the brain
I wasn't born to live with no champagne
God complex don't say my name in vain

Baby if I die today don't you cry and don't you pray
Baby if I die today don't you cry and don't you pray
Today today for me

Life's one crazy journey I lost so many cases need a better attorney
Got a war going on in my head and I can't choose my army
My back hurts I carry the weight of my issues on me
Sorry mommy
If i ever blow my brains out with a tommy
I promise I'll make sure you never find the body
I'll write you a letter to tell you I'm better off dead
So please don't cry when you see the bloodshed

Baby if I die today don't you cry and don't you pray
Baby if I die today don't you cry and don't you pray
Today today for me

At a point in life, you know, you're gonna feel doomed but...
There's always the light at the end of the tunnel, you know...
You just gotta spread love, be yourself, find your callings, you know...
I don't know lately I've just been feeling really...

Blessed blessed
Couple months since I've been feeling stressed stressed
Filled up with the hate up in my chest chest
Made a change in my life with finesse finesse
Now I'm just living at my best

Life's about the positivity
Can't you see?
It wasn't me
Spent a crazy night daydreaming with Lucy
Who is she?
Maybe next time that's another story
I wanna be discreet and tell you
How I went from empty to complete

Trapped in my mind peace was so hard to find
So I closed all my blinds hoping I could survive
I looked at the sky and then I realized
That I'm my own self and life is divined
I learnt to take nothing for granted
And even if sometimes you feel like you're stranded
Remember that being's a gift and you have it
You can enter a new world without a white rabbit

Blessed blessed
Couple months since I've been feeling stressed stressed
Filled up with the hate up in my chest chest
Made a change in my life with finesse finesse
Now I'm just living at my best

Blessed, best, blessed, best, blessed, best, blessed, best, blessed, best, blessed...