Counting the Fallen - What's Killing Me Lyrics

Sitting in this room
Far from home
It's been over a year and I don't know if this ends
But all I know is that you meant everything to me
You were the reason I kept going
And that's what's killing me
Now I see that the light
At the end of the tunnel
Isn't light at all
It's a darkness so blinding
That I forgot where I went wrong
I finally realized
I would never know
Singing songs of never giving up
Yet finding myself letting go
How can someone mean so much
And still bring you down
The best thing that ever happened to me
Is killing me now
Now I see that the light
At the end of the tunnel
Isn't light at all
It's a darkness so blinding
Cause I created a fantasy
Where I was Happy
With what I thought would get me by
But now I see
That you're no good for me
I only feel empty
I'm telling you this now in case you were wondering why
If you really ever cared at all
You'd have told me to stay away
And not silently shut me out
Because sometimes an overdose of pain
Is what we need to get through the day
Cause I created a fantasy
Where I was Happy
With what I thought would get me by
But now I see
That you're no good for me
I only feel empty
I'm telling you this now in case you were wondering why
But the worst part of it all isn't that you're gone
Cause you're still around wherever I go
In my heart and in my mind
Now I'm saying goodbye
Cause it was never meant to be
The fact that I'll always be a regret to you
That's what's killing me