Cory Ard - 12:11 Lyrics

See I wasn't a gangsta
I just had it bad
I just need you to listen
Take walk in my shoes
I smoked a blunt or two
And wouldn't take it back, I did what I knew
I hit the block
I was stabbed but never shot
I was a gully dude
Gang Banging was a way a life
It was a family too
You see I fought to live
Surenos, bloods and crips
I got some war wounds
Angry all the time
And almost never in a happy mood
My moms raised me
Like i'm guessing yours raised you
Was Angry at my pops
Why
He never came through
So lets back up just a bit
See I grew up as a kid
Not knowing a good example to follow to begin
My dad went to jail when I was 5 months old
And I admit
The other men in my life
Abused my mom and her kids
It was sick
And I was dying just to live
I was 11 when it really fell apart
Picture this
11 years old smoking drinking and watching porn
Things never were the same
And destruction was the norm
But when I got to high school
I felt bred for the streets
We started a local gang
200 plus of us in Colorado Springs
From shoot uts
To drive by's
School was out on my time
I didn't abide by
To many rules
And I pitted the fool
Who would ever cross us
I just had to be cool
But really I was just lost
And my identity was marred
And If I took my clothes off
I could show you some scars
From being physical abused
And get stabbed in my arm
Your heart gets hard
From all the pain that you see
The pain that you feel
The pain that shoots up in your heels
Because you've walked this long walk
In a short amount a years
Listen, I wasn't a thug
I was lost and in mud
I was dirty, desperately needed to be clean
And I just needed a little love
See I felt abandoned
Like am I not good enough
I hated men and struggled with the man that I'd become

I struggled with acceptance
Gang banging eased my depression
And I was taught a prayer at night gets you into heaven
But I found God
Matter Fact
He found me in the mess
That I created to escape the loneliness I was feeling
See I said I found God
Matter Fact
He found me in the mess
That I created to escape the loneliness I was feeling
HE SAVED ME
And remade me
Took me from so crazy, hazy, lazy, hatred filled teen
Who really was just a baby
So much life in me to live
And I lived like I was in the Navy
Surrounded by tons of guys
And going under
I waste deep
I was sold out you couldn't pay me
To sell out
There was no maybe
But God rescued me from death, a jail cell
HE SAVED ME
I changed because I allowed Him
To come and replace the
Things inside of me
I couldn't change but tried changing
I gave up and gave him my life as you can see
And He can do the same for you cause that's just what he did for me