Lookin' back at the past like damn was I toxic
Blamin' others for my problems and damn that's ironic
I was broke, I would blow my last dollars to smoke chronic
So know that I'm gon write as long as I got it
I was lost burnin' bridges as soon as I crossed em
I would skip work and lie to my bosses
I would drag women right into my nonsense
Giving them problems they shouldn't have regardless
Yeah regardless if they loved me or not
I couldn't trust em, busy livin' as somebody I'm not
Projecting issues that's within you and your soul gonna rot
I remember tweakin' police gonna come to my spot
If I got popped there ain't no option man I'm gonna get locked
So paranoid I thought they roped my homies into the plot
They think they know me, I proceeded to be livin' a lie
Love don't mean shit if it isn't inside, I'll tell you why
Sometimes I feel like I'm living to die
Or like I do not have the words for how I'm feeling inside
I know I hurt a lot of people, a result of my pride
I feel like you can see right through me so I cover my eyes
With polarized Ray Ban lenses
Despite my best intentions
These past few months been pretendin'
Didn't end it and you felt it
I'm on the line sometimes I might feel like I'm a psycho
A psycho
My mind had me feeling like I was trapped inside a cycle
A cycle
You say I should stay, it's okay, to be honest, girl I might go
I might go
She turn them lights down low & I spend another night though
Tonight though, my flight's gone
Sometimes I feel like I'm living to die
Or like I do not have the words for how I'm feeling inside
I know I hurt a lot of people, a result of my pride
I feel like you can see right through me so I cover my eyes
With polarized Ray Ban lenses
Despite my best intentions
These past few months been pretendin'
Didn't end it and you felt it