Conkrete - Worse and Worse (feat. Devin Vegas) Lyrics

Yo
I be looking fine when you do see me on the surface
But inside I'm feeling urges
And I try to close the curtains
But In darkness they are lurking
So I throw them in a furnace
They survive through all the burning
And right now my stomachs turning
Everytime I try to fix this addiction it worsens
That is why I'm sipping and slipping into this bourbon
I be feeling finished diminished call me a hearse quick
Always Am i sitting and wishing man that we were shit
Pacing in my bedroom and I'm questioning my purpose
I can't find an answer so I'm guessing that I'm worthless
Thinking is my cancer so a bottle I will purchase
Mix it with the NyQuil cause my mind's full I ain't nervous
Learn from your mistakes well, I ain't ever learned shit
All I ever felt I was, was just another burden
Try to find the good in me, but that just isn't working
That means I am broke n so I guess I will stay hurting
Feels like I've been cursed since birth
Day by day it hurts and hurts
Happiness ain't worth the search
I be getting merked and merked
Death just likes to flirt and work
Bury me with dirt and dirt
Everytime I help myself
I be getting worse and worse
Feels like I've been cursed since birth
Day by day it hurts and hurtS
Happiness ain't worth the search
I be getting merked and merked
Death just likes to flirt and work
Bury me with dirt and dirt
Everytime I help myself
I be getting worse and worse
Dying everyday I try to hide the pain to stay alive
I see what people made of life
I'm hating what iv made of mine
Maybe i was ableized by hatred in my favorite times
But i know anytime i painted pages it was homicide
Depression caused amazing songs
Especially when i hated all
My days were long and so id pop a pill and F*cking blaze a bong
I'm Sober now its overpowered me And i aint staying long
It's taken everything thats out of Me and i aint playin dog
Messy when u patient
Know destined this for Greatness but you questioning Your placement
Second guessing every face thats In your face i feel the jealousy
My waters being posioned im The only one with chemistry
Relishing in that if its a fact that Is an act of infidelity
I'm lying to myself and there Ain't shit u could be telling me
I fell in deep with drugs when i Was f*ckin with my melodies
The remedies i picked had me Committing several felonies
The ones I love, that i hurt, im Truly sorry for that
I aint have no bad intentions Just some horrible acts
I didnt realize my depression And how hard it impacts
Now the hurt is gettin worse i See the scars of my path
I can hear the devil laugh
And To me I ain't getting back
I thought that All was well
But now I can see my that my heavens black
I didn't need to fall to hell
To say that I regret my past
I wanna get up out of this
I wanna get up out of this
But all my dreams have to turned nightmares
And I'm stuck paralysis
My demons never fight fare they just send me help that's counterfeit
And that's why there's more bottles in my room then inside taverns it's
Effected me In what I thought was good but now Its adversing
Feels like I've been cursed since birth
Day by day it hurts and hurts
Happiness ain't worth the search
I be getting merked and merked
Death just likes to flirt and work
Bury me with dirt and dirt
Everytime I help myself
I be getting worse and worse