Conkrete - A Reason Lyrics

Take it to back to 8th grade
When I had to face pain
When I felt my plane slain
I was screaming mayday
You can see my ways change
Every single day prayed
That these pricks would stay bay
Told them all f*ck themselves
And all I did was gain hate
Could not find a safe way
For me to go place craze
I was really angry
And I sat there going crazy
Could you really f*cking blame me
Had to go and Move schools
Cool dudes choose you
To bruise who knew
Old friends had just disappeared
Feels like my soul's missing here
Feels like my path isn't clear
Death has been across the room he is sitting near
Maybe he can be a friend
When I reach that certain end
I just need a reason keep on breathing and breathing
I just need a reason to keep my heart good and beating
I just need a reason to keep on beating these demons
I just need a reason to keep on living through seasons
Man I pray to god
And I'm Talking Out to The universe
Please don't say this dude is cursed
Please just help me prove my worth
I just need a reason to live before I do quit
I just need a reason to live I need it real quick
Homicidal and suicidal
The two collide yo
I am all alone in the darkness
Homie my mind's full
I don't have a vent to get everything off my chest
Stressed and pressed I hate this mess
I make a mess and don't impress so
Everyone can get the middle finger
I let linger
On my headphones I've been slipping into some of biggies thoughts
Teachers in the classroom they all wanna kick me off
Maybe I should try to write
BeCause I hate this lifeless fight
Did I find my purpose?
Did I find My meaning?
I can not believe it
I might not be worthless
Now I really see it
Darkness is now burning
Only thing that's screaming
Is my heart for earning
I just need a reason keep on breathing and breathing
I just need a reason to keep my heart good and beating
I just need a reason to keep on beating these demons
I just need a reason to keep on living through seasons
Man I pray to god
And I'm Talking out to the universe
Please don't say this dude is cursed
Please just help me prove my worth
I just need a reason to live before I do quit
I just need a reason to live I need it real quick
Kids can take my lunch
They can say I'm scum
Go back where I came from
Queens is just the dump
Now I do not give a f*ck
Look at me I'm spitting son
I know that these kids will only grow up to be assholes
Now I know that I will grow up and have some nice cash flow
Y'all are pussies anyway
I'll f*ck you up any day
They would never lend a hand
They would only say some crap
I know I will be the man
I just wanna f*cking rap
This you can not take away
Everyday I lay awake
This is me and I am it
That is really safe to say
I know I will play the game
I know i will break the chains
I'm about to take a plane
Cause I need to catch a flight