I was just a writer on the stove
I needed love to keep me feeling warm
I was hanging around with nothing else to do
Let me just talk
Ever since you came into my life I've been feeling stressed out
I don't hook up with randoms cause sex just makes me stressed out
There's girls on my phone texting me "hey you tryna come test this out"
And I don't even text 'em back I'm tryna figure out what I'm about
I should've got a girlfriend, yeah, I should've made a breakup album
They're shitting on me, I haven't ate in days, like what the hells your problem
You feel entitled to some shit you don't deserve
It's hard to be respectful when you wanna leave the Earth
Listen, I've always been there for you when you needed me
You could ask any one of my friends, I drop the ball, I'm there immediately
I'm the realest one I know and my problems go as far as the eye can see
Every time something means a lot to me, to her, it's just not that deep
A one sided relationship ain't going very far
I don't wanna hear your sappy ass music, play RMC Mike in my car
I'm tired of worrying about "is this hard?", I need my pen game to be the greatest
I ain't gon' hit it from the back, if we ain't dating you can't take dick
Laying in my bed thinking about my ex and it made me sad
I got blood, sweat, and tears on the chest press, I just wanna be bad
I been thinking I'm the best you ever had but you the best I ever had
But just because you the best I had doesn't mean that I want you back
You could fold under pressure but I could never ever ever crack
Shoutout Ricky Bascom, I'm a boob man cause I don't care about yo ass
When I think about the way I treated you I can't help but to feel bad
And it's too late to say I'm sorry cause you would just throw it in the trash
We can't help but think about the past, I wouldn't take back what we had
But there's some things I definitely would've done differently, I'm sure you understand that
From 2004 to 2022 I was never realistic
That's probably why they heard my music, turned it off, and just dismissed it
So much more to life I've been tryna figure out what I'm missing
Hope inside my heart, reading books, I've been tryna listen
You can take it all from me but I'm just here to witness
It's gods plan, it's gods vision
Hello girl, you know for days now I've been watching you as you walk by
And I've been afraid to come out tell ya exactly just what's on my mind
Well I think I'm going out of my head
Yes I think I'm going out of
What goes around comes around
I guess it was my turn to run away
I guess I'm going back to the chest press
Up and down til I can't feel it, that's a dead set
Gotta do my cardio or else I'm restless
I've been in the gym so much cause I don't wanna feel the pain
I'm in the gym at 12am cause I heard someone say your name
I got a little buff and y'all the ones who think I changed?
If so well than be it, y'all can stay the same
It can all come up and it can all come down
I was starting controversies, I was talk of the town
Look at me a year ago and take a look at me now
I just hit 'em with the funk and it hit me with the wow
I was bleeding on the chest press, the gym, I had to lose some weight
Cole Myer taking steroids that's like, letting the condom break
I'm pushing all my limits tryna see how much I can take (Well I think I'm going out of my)
Lost my mind a long time ago, I can't find it
Opposite of choking my bitches, they get the Heimlich
I don't care about sex cause I'm a nihilist
But she keep looking at my dick she tryna size it
I like to be in control, you can't ride it
I got protein in my water, new size bitch
You always hit my phone and I ain't got the time, bitch
You want my autograph? I've never really signed shit
Uh I guess I could, I call my ex a beaver cause she begging for the wood
I call my old one bug eyes, she like a fly, and my old best friend slid her to another guy
You don't care about this life, you don't care if you just live or die ima tell you why
You gotta get up off your ass and go and get up on that grind
I got blood sweat and tears up on this shit now hear me cry
I'm looking for my lost light
I'm tryna find my peace, alright (Mhm)
They say I'm just the wrong type (Yeah, yeah)
I'm still searching for my light
I know you don't care at all and you can't feel the same way
I run myself in loops, I should've seen it coming, heartbreak
I should've noticed we were moving at a separate pace
I tend to notice, also tend to look the other way
I tend to miss you, it tends to burn
Your heart is all mine you said "it's his to earn"
These games just keep going on like, when will I learn?
The smaller I felt, yeah, the more I yearn
The bigger I got, yeah, the more it burns
My tears ain't enough, I need it to hurt (Yeah)