Happier Things Video (MV)

I'm sick of people telling me to stop wallowing
"You should write about happier things"
Try choosing between numb or sad for as long as I have
Find unhappiness isn't so bad

I wonder why I'm unhappy
As if you didn't tear through me
People who barely know me keep wishing me well
Wishing this never happened isn't gonna help

If I can find a way to feel again
And be more than the ghost in my skin
I try to become real
But end up haunting all my family and friends

I'm sick of people telling me to stop wallowing
"You should write about happier things"
Try choosing between numb or sad for as long as I have
Find unhappiness isn't so bad

Seems like I knew more at eighteen than I do now
But I don't know how
Feels like I'm living in reverse
People I keep letting in
Don't see that I am getting worse

So why did this happen doesn't seem like a question worth asking
The lie I'm believing is that I'll never be able to love again

I'm sick of people telling me to stop wallowing
"You should write about happier things"
Try choosing between numb or sad for as long as I have
Find unhappiness isn't so bad

But then I'm alone for a month and I know the promise I made myself is hallow
I want to be more than this shell, want to escape this self imposed hell
I don't believe I'm skilled at pushing people out, but sometimes I doubt it
I want to go back to how I was as a kid, cus at least I knew what I wanted

I'm sick of people telling me to stop wallowing
"You should write about happier things"
Try choosing between numb or sad for as long as I have
Find unhappiness isn't so bad