The Closets - That's Not Me Lyrics

No one knows the real you
If they found out, what would I do
In today's world you can't ignore
That truth will always bang on your door
Good or bad news, you're never sure
Until you open up, still left insecure
If I get it over and conquer my fears
Would I hear applause or will I be left in tears
I sit and wonder my description so they could visualize
Tear off my mattress, view remnants I hide
They'd all just think we're friends as we must conceal
The truth i'd try to bend,so they won't know how i feel
I'd long to talk and speak about his zealous ways
But as the sideboards creak, dogmatism rages
Despite my cuts and scars, accepted open arms
Beside I'd feel secure and safe away from harm
Separated by the day, united by the night
Before his door I'd say if he could hold me tight
Though my eyes get locked with those who pass me by
I never once forgot the ones I couldn't buy
I'll get out of this place, I'm in their face
Without any doubt, They know what I'm about
I know you, You know I
You know that it's true I've been living a lie
Take what they want but they won't need me
Beside their flesh I shouldn't stay
Now in their head from day to day
The sheets are stained, my scent's a stench
Inside my brain, crawl out the trench
Now I'm on my own
Forgot my buds and left at home
I dwell on my past cause I neglected my future
I'm skipping the pages to my final chapter
Suppression leads to no happy endings
With all my depression, my life is now pending