Closed Sessions - Helluva Year Lyrics

Emilio Rojas, I didn't roll the R right though
Emilio Rojas
We at the closed sessions, soundscape studios
Rubyhornet
Yeah Yeah (uh huh uh huh)
You know I miss you
But I never even meant to
I just gotta make it clear
I'm just having one hell of a year

Sometimes the sacrifice seems bigger than the dream
My family and friends don't give a shit about a Scheme
I know I been late or never even made it
Because I am over here, contemplating how to make it
I've broken hearts, dreams, drumming for the tears
I'm humming out a melody while you telling me yah fears
I know I gotta change cause you don't seem to see it
My people want to kick it but I'm too busy to be with
And I ain't being pompous homie, far from it
But I just have a vision and I cant get far from it
I know I gotta pay you back, put it on my tab
For every time I wasn't there or kicked it in the lab
Why you mad
I swear that I'm doing it for us
And if you ever doubted
Then remember how to trust
And I'm sorry moms for leaving early on your birthday
I wanted to make you proud but I don't know if it is working, shit
I guess you gotta sacrifice it if you really mean it
I hope my people stick around me
Because I really need'em
And yet I'm missing you,
I'm wishing you was here doe,
But it is clear as day
I'm having a helluva year yo

You know I miss you
But I never even meant to
I just gotta make it clear
I'm just having one hell of a year

I got a schedule that's hard to compete with
Also I ain't been around with my moms and my nieces
Sisters both mad, they been callin me freaking
Saying that I need to get priorities even
Yeah and lately shit is getting crazy
I'm out of town often, I'm thinking of my baby
No it's not enough cause when you see me with them ladies
On that website smiling it eat you up inside and
Every moment with you remain precious
My time is money, but you're my main investment
I leave you voicemails
And you save the message
So next time that I'm not around you can listen
These people saying it's my fault that we lost touch
But it take two people to not talk much
And I'm gonna breakthrough even if it cost us
Sorry if it does but,
Everything I wants just
A couple steps away so f*ck a yesterday
I'm living for the moment
What the f*ck is left to say
You're either holding me down,
Or you be holding me back
Sorry baby please don't overreact
I still miss you

You know I miss you
But I never even meant to
I just gotta make it clear
I'm just having one hell of a year

Yeah Uh

I know I been gone like the wind
And they say love don't last long like a trend
The money takes the place of the time I'm supposed to spend
I know that I'm the cause of the tears you soakin in
The years that we done put in
Mean more to me than the stages I done stood in
Baby that's on the real
Cause ain't no record deal
That could ever make me feel
Like you do
For now I got another show to kill
So I'm gone to another town
I know you smile whenever you hear I put it down
I do my thang yo
Living in a nightmare wonder where my dreams go
But you the leading cheerleader on my team though
And all them other hoes in the past
Is just that hoes in the past
And I aint gotta speak it
I just think it like Hov in the lab
Might f*ck'em
But then I put them hoes in a cab
And you were on the passenger side
Take the place of the money
Until the money is back on my mind
So baby what we beefing about
It don't matter who Im f*cking
Long as you the one I'm thinking about.
I still miss you

You know I miss you
But I never even meant to
I just gotta make it clear
I'm just having one hell of a year