Civic the Rapper - Asleep Lyrics

I'm waking up look at the time it's f*cking 8 am
I'm twitching and I'm shaking
Cuz I know all of the
Pain waiting
For me but
Im changing up my ways
And I'm Better off
I make one f*cking slow song and you think that I'm Getting soft
Why the f*ck would that be?
Why can't I be happy?
I swear all these people are around just to Distract me
Why the f*ck am I around
The one thing that I'm asking
I'll Slit my f*cking throat
If you find any way to pass me yuh
I keep on passing all these giant opportunities
And laughing at these people that don't ever see me Usually
Using me
Making f*cking music for your eulogy
Staying blind
And Only ever look at what you
Choose to see
Yeah
Like tell me how does that one feel inside
Deal with all this pressure until
You don't even feel alive
Hard for you to measure
When your Contemplating suicide
All that f*cking
Stress youre under
I wonder if you're alright uh
And I don't wanna breathe
Looking at the sun and f*cking wishing I could leave
While you tell me it's enough but it seems
I don't wanna wake up i just wanna stay asleep
Uh
Uh
I try to find a way to keep my f*cking self in
Line
Anxiously I'm Shaking cause I'm
Stressing
All the f*cking
Time
Why the f*ck you waiting
For a person who don't have a spine
Why you f*cking taking
Advtange and always telling lies
I
I have quite the f*cking life
So I get really emotional
And rap into this mic
What's the point of writing music if all you do is recite
Bunch of uninspired lyrics
You probably think are hype uh
I don't wanna wake up I just wanna f*cking dream
I been feeling really lost
And now nothing's what it seems
What's the point of giving up
I been working with my team
I been feeling really stuck and
I been trying not to Scream
Meanwhile you cut open my f*cking throat
You've been telling me that it'd be better if I was alone
Pushing all this weight on me and hoping I would f*cking choke
I'd be better off alseep than awake in this f*cking home
Yeah
And I don't wanna breathe
Looking at the sun and f*cking wishing I could leave
While you tell me it's enough but it seems
I don't wanna wake up i just wanna stay asleep
Uh