[ Featuring Halocene ]
Built a fortress trading memories for always feeling empty
Lost purpose running from my pain
I made a prison shining trauma and never found Nirvana
Sold cyanide for Novacaine
I've learned that there is no healing in not feeling anything
I'm just a cage of skin that threw away the key
To fall apart right now that'd feel like ecstasy but
These walls weren't built a break
I really wish that I could cry right now
I really wish that I could let this out
Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
I'm too good at holding them down
I really wish that I could cry right now
But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
But the silence is making me drown
I really wish that I could cry
I really wish that I could cry
I've had to wear a thousand faces
Be fake to just replace this panic that my past holds tight
Now every feeling's lost it's flavor cause I feel so much safer
As frozen than in fight or flight
I've learned that I'd rather suffer I would rather agonize
Than lose the little things just for the alibi
That taste of tender love is worth a sacrifice
I'm living not alive
I really wish that I could cry right now
I really wish that I could let this out
Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
I'm too good at holding them down
I really wish that I could cry right now
But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
But the silence is making me drown
My life is full of love but I'm empty
Cause I've been so afraid of remembering
I just want to break down
I'm ready
So let me please
I really wish that I could cry right now
I really wish that I could let this out
Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
I'm too good at holding them down
I really wish that I could cry right now
But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
But the silence is making me drown
I really wish that I could cry
