Chulo - Smoking Mirrors Lyrics

Had to stop makin' excuses had to get off my a**
Had to realize that nobody was gon' throw me a bag
Don't want no handouts from no n****s cause these n****s is sad
Cause when you up they in ya face but when you down they all laugh
But I know how this game go to tell the truth
Too much pretending and fake love is why I chuck the deuce
Smoke n' mirrors everything is just a cloak on the move
I talk to God like everyday cause I got s**t to lose

Don't wanna talk about them losses but I got to
So you can get a understandin' of my life too
I hit a stain on my own teacher cause l had to
Then after school I count it all in the bathroom
All because Grandma was strugglin' to pay the bills
That's why I jumped right in the streets without two f***s to give
Remember when I told the police he can eat a d**k
A hour later OG scooped me from the station
I was 14 my dawg Kestro sold me a ratchet
He told me 'fore a p***y try me he'll make sure I ain't lackin'
I won't put s**t inside a song if it ain't facts I can't cap it
It took some time to get this drip I'm so sauced up look what happen
Cause I remember back then they threw salt on my name
No damn support, no f***in' help can you imagine my pain
Nobody sent my a** dime when my wrist was in chains
On top of that my girl left me standing in the rain
Everybody counted me out cause they don't wanna see me win
I lost the people I thought loved me guess I been fooled again
Don't care what they think 'bout me cause I don't need no friends
As long as my music can touch yo soul and I can make some M's

Had to stop makin' excuses had to get off my a**
Had to realize that nobody was gon' throw me a bag
Don't want no handouts from no n****s cause these n****s is sad
Cause when you up they in ya face but when you down they all laugh
But I know how this game go to tell the truth
Too much pretending and fake love is why I chuck the deuce
Smoke n' mirrors everything is just a cloak on the move
I talk to God like everyday cause I got s**t to lose