Snowfall, all around me
Headed home alone towards family
Treetops, all surround me
As Im driving down unplowed back streets
Ya, but then my car starts sliding right, tires gliding in the snow
Im praying that Im gonna be alright cause I've seemed to lost all control
And Im in disbelief of what I see, Im getting closer and closer to this pole then
(Car crash, Sirens)
Airbag goes off like a gun
Smoke from the engine starts to fill my lungs
Started choking, the door opens but I don't go far
Got out my car just to realize Im out a car
Dang, rest in peace I guess
The snow sets like distress deep in my chest
Release a breath with much resentment
You'd think almost losing my life would point me to the one who gives it
Uh, started questioning myself daily
Im a battleground between me and the one who made me
Everybody's light shining round me while mine fading
Wondering who to tell, can't tell cause who am I kidding, I don't know
Why listen to these thoughts in my mind
If we all got problems, why listen to mine
Its a shame times a luxury, and our schedules to busy to see that
People like me you call friends have fallen behind
Im surrounded yet I feel so alone
So much for people claiming they're intentional
We're in a safe space yet no one sees the danger
Years of seeing my face but all Im seeing are strangers
So my lips stay sealed cause no one understands
I don't want sorry's or any 10 step plans
I don't want apologies, excuses, or grieving
Saying sorry couldn't be any further from missing the meaning
Sorry just a 5 letter word
Real friends don't just listen but they feel what they heard
Feel the insecurities, fallen hopes, and the hurt
Feel the disappointment through the others eyes and not theirs
If you got a friend like that, man tell 'em your thankful
If they got your back, its a blessing be grateful
Hold them near and dear, they your lifeline
People like that coming once in a lifetime, ya uh
Crazy Ive been feeling like Im not important
Its hard to find a reason or a season sayin different
This is my fault, the way that every day is a fight
If i did life right, Jesus Christ would suffice but
My mistakes feel like something of a curse
And conviction don't help, but it just makes things worse
So i vent in all my songs, pray one day ill be successful
I ain't talking physical, its mental, ya
The enemy got me slipping in the snow, uh
He laugh at my pain but to me he's the joke
See he can take my car but not my glow, uh
Cause I got more than mustard seeds making me grow
Demons coming for me more than before
Tryna make me weak when Im tryna seek the lord
So Im goin harder at the mission when I feel like quitting
Searching God's provision cause he says Im worth way more
Somebody pray for a brother
May I follow gods words and not pursue the words of others
Ya Im called upon these waters but Im watching where I tread
We all humans most wanted with a price on our head
The enemy tempting me with that snowfall and beauty
Blizzard like my sin, blinding me so I can't see
See you focus on the wrong thing and you let yourself slide
Can't stop cause of pride and it cost you your life, thats crazy
Done playing these games, Ima point and shoot
Sick of running for my life like bandicoot
Ive been feeling pathetic
But I refuse to live my life like a living anesthetic
So ima go the distance like Im Usain
If you got the keys why you never see change?
God was never just the key, he the key chain
Now you wanna switch tones like a key change, uh
A puerto rican with a beacon of light
Making comebacks like Im decked in all white
Ya Im striving for the days that me and Christ are alike
They said I'd never solve my problems but, heck he just might
That glory I been treatin' like its engraved in me
I won't be defeated by whats a defeated enemy
So catch me in adidas with a hat and a patty fleece
Me and all the squad live forever when we rest in peace
Peter, Thomas, Job, David, Paul
Show me what Im missing when Im tempted to fall
Cause all these other fake options got me dropping the ball
But kinda like my ex, couldn't keep track of em all
My efforts crash like a smash dummy hitting the wall
Cause I thought I needed service just to give you a call
But that was never how you made the Pauls from the Sauls
So keep me from slipping up when the snow starts to fall, uh