In My Head Video (MV)

Shoutout to Phora
He's all I listened to growing up
I woke up Christmas Day it was six in the morning
Opening my last few presents so much love I felt connected
I had work in a couple of hours
I didn't wanna leave my zone I felt so loved and then I
Remembered about what I didn't have
A real relationship somebody who I accepted man
Cris just don't think about it's gonna come to you
God has your plan he has it set for you
Nothing you can do to change that
I get it but when's it coming I just wanna know
I'm tired of being alone
I need a girl to be with when it rains
Somebody to lay with and watch the water fall down
Hit the windows and watch the clouds chase by
As we wait 'till the night and watch the stars shine
Class next week and I'm barely writing my second song
Keeping my mind off of it like I should've done all along
Waking up to the same shit over and over
No point in living my life
I needed some help
Talked to a therapist he gave me a different look on life
I just wish somebody heard this music as much as I did myself
When I felt your body I see you
And every time I walk right past my love I feel you
When I was up late night that's right I saw you
And every time I walk right past my love in my head
In my head in my head
In my head in my head
In my head in my head
In my head in my head
Where did I go wrong
I showed everybody my heart
It's like everything I did just didn't matter
I always planned everything and kept us together
Why do I feel so unappreciated like it's two jaded two bladed in my chest
Why do I feel a disconnect damn
I know you feel the same way but what the f*ck
Back in elementary that shit had me traumatized
Getting treated like a bitch no friends
They always threw me under the bus
Left me out of everything I felt so hurt
I had nobody to talk to not even my own parents
They looked me dead in the eyes and said Cris what the f*ck is going on
You're coming home with dirt marks on your shirt
Tears dripping down your face and a bruise on your face
What the hell are they doing to you
Now you got a detention for causing disruption in class
But they were picking on you
Okay
We are moving schools you're going to do better
None of this bullshit is going to happen anymore you hear me
And my mama was right
But I still feel it from back in the day
Some type of PTSD like somebody is always watching you
Make a mistake and lose your life from it
But then again I'm an over thinker
I could be overthinking right now
Or maybe it was just a dream no scene