Chef Mal - Shade Lyrics

Lemmie get it started Lemmie tell you how I really feel
So many drugs that I've lost track of what is real
I'm falling down a rabbit hole, tryna find my zone
Fighting my reflections cuz I thought they were my clones

As I'm getting older all decisions are my own
Am I going back to school or will I buy a home
Choices get thick when you gotta take a loan
So f*ck blow me up can you throw a dog a bone

Sitting in my car getting stoned writing lyrics
I used to think my raps were good
I thought that they were peerless

I'm merely just a bearded irritated imitation
Of these other white rappers
That you hear up on the stations

I'm feeling so amazing gazing at constellations
I wanna make invasion, penetrate outer space
The sky is caliginous, defined as a mist
Stumble over lines but I won't rhyme with a trip

People keep telling me this song will make me famous
I don't think you get it I'm not doing this for payment
I want to spread a message, hope that it contagious
If I get fame, then I'll use it for some changes

I'm waiting for the moment that my omen taketh over
Poppin pills sipping potions smoking weed hella zoning
Roaming down a road how'd I end up in this rabbit hole
Alone with a microphone tryna find my way home

Combing through my poems while I'm foaming at the lips, cause I posted fifty songs but I still ain't got a hit
Slipping through a rift, flick fire to the bridge
Then walk through dimensions feeling all different

Why can't I listen, I'm gifted with these sentences
Spitting so bitter like my mouth is full of lemons
I'm bringing that light to my lyrics over shadowed
I'm up shit creek let my demon have the paddle

Yo, Truth be told that's the moat around my castle
Holding out the shade but the walls are getting fragile
Badgers saddled with their eight shots, go let em
But you better hit ya target or ya gonna get the venom

Got four mixtapes, chef murdered every letter
Let alone the vendetta debted to all my feta
Cheddar put it over lettuce let us all be better
An a Set a down our phones or we gonna need a medic

We breaking all our necks, and half of us In debt
We as the people, we United under stress
Most of us can recognize the problems that we face
But all of us just turn around and wish for better days
We Acting like these laws on our guns are okay
When little kids go to school get shot in second grade
I'm hesitating Walmart, afraid of getting sprayed
We need to get smarter an make a f*cking change

The thing about shade,
It go away when it sunny
The funny thing about me
I live in shade I love it
Everything in grey
Shade follow like a puppet
My finger on the cover
While I'm bout to say f*ck it

These politicians start the wars
Keep their kids from all the fighting
They just tryna line their pockets
Lying, can't You recognize it?

The f*ck do I bitch, boy I'm so lucky
I got a good job that pay me good money
Got both parents living well real healthy
I'm doing real good with this hand life dealt me

We all got demons that we holding in a shadowbox
But Time passes by they eroding on the locks

I'm waiting for the moment that my omen taketh over
Poppin pills sipping potions smoking weed hella zoning
Roaming down a road how'd I end up in this rabbit hole
Alone with a microphone tryna find my way home

Combing through my poems while I'm foaming at the lips, cause I posted fifty songs but I still ain't got a hit
Slipping through a rift, flick fire to the bridge
Then walk through dimensions feeling all different

Why can't I listen, I'm gifted with these sentences
Spitting so bitter like my mouth is full of lemons
I'm bringing that light to my lyrics over shadowed
I'm up shit creek let my demon have the paddle

Yo, Truth be told that's the moat around my castle
Holding out the shade but the walls are getting fragile
Badgers saddled with their eight shots, go let em
But you better hit ya target or ya gonna get the venom

So many shades
Hope the grass get greener

Feel my emotion
Waves in the ocean

I Spose I'll be better than these local rappers I oppose