Chef Mal - Broken Promises Lyrics

When I'm laying in my bed or going though the motions
I'm haunted by a ghost, drained of these emotions
I'm sitting on a beach, staring at the ocean
I think about your face god damn I'm broken

Only way I know to numb it is to take a toke in
I'm sorry that I left you, Im sorry that I chose this
Baby I still love you, believe I'll never quit
Always on my mind you my reason to live

Cry me Rivera, an I'll be there to mop it up
I'll drop what I'm doin, An I'll be there for you
Regardless if you harness on this fondness
You're the only the angel left in my darkness

Things fell apart, I'm guilty on my conscience
It's been way too long, I think I broke my promise
It's been way too long, I think I broke my promise

I wrote my song to you
I gave you the key first
Now my hearts been overworked
Ripped apart and shoved in dirt

I'm drowning in the wishing well
My last breath I wish you well
Please tell me that you'll reach out
And help me outta my hell

Just offer my apology in hope that you acknowledge it
That I made some bad choices as an alcoholic
Worst one I ever made was gettin up and leaving you
I hope that yah pops well, Yah mah an yah sis too

Depressed all day writing lyrics getting faded
We had that certain thing
I was certain we would make it
The way I held you in my arms dancing at prom
Shit, It's not fair of me to air this through a song
The end of the day I took the time to write my feelings
At the end of the year I'll still be here spitting lyrics
Know you're on my mind every night that I sleep
The only one I dream about is you Ashleigh

When I was in jail man it hit me real hard
To never see her face again, not even from afar
The f*ck was I thinking driving drunk in my car
She the only thing I care about an I was being barred

Four years sober and I'd throw it all away for you
I'd pack up all my shit an jump on a plane for you
I've changed as a human but I know it doesn't matter
You see me as the piece of shit that cause this disaster

Can't turn back time, if I could I'd hit reverse
Just to see yah eyes, I just wanna converse
Ask how you're doing, are you doing alright
Are you still pursuing what you want in life

I've gone through relationships
They've been f*cking hell
I've gone through some real shit
I've put up my shell

I swallow my mistakes
Never should've blocked you out
I never should've gave up
I should've stayed an stuck it out

Swear to the god if there is one
I'm not reminiscing
I'm just missing on you
I'm not asking for forgiveness
I'm just asking for an inch
I know it can't be easy
When I'm asking for this

Ain't no pity party, pretty please don't pity on me
I just had to say it, and put it out in the world
In case I die tomorrow then you know I was real
Take it to yah grave with the way you know I feel

I created this song for you, I started from scratch
I pulled it from my heart, then I put it on the track

Time goes by I see that
My feelings for you so gone
High in the clouds
Baby girl you make me proud
From the time that I seen you
To the time that I felt you
Breaking down my walls
I tell you that I like you
I tell you that you great
When it comes to a fire
Baby you a blue flame
You the string to my kite
And The peddle to my bike
You the sun to my moon
The light to my night

Depressed all day writing lyrics getting faded
We had that certain thing
I was certain we would make it
The way I held you in my arms dancing at prom
Shit, It's not fair of me to air this through a song
The end of the day I took the time to write my feelings
At the end of the year I'll still be here spitting lyrics
Know you're on my mind every night that I sleep
The only one I dream about is you Ashleigh

Hear that last verse, that's the poem I wrote for yah
Back in tenth grade and it came from my memory