Charli Thweatt - Survival State Lyrics

I wake up, armor on, ready for the fight
Heart like a soldier, always in flight
Every breath feels like a battle I can't win
Running through the fire, flames against my skin
The world spins fast but I'm stuck in place
Every step forward, I'm losing the race
Courage in my pocket, fear in my eyes
I've forgotten what it's like to just feel alive
But I keep going, I keep pushing through
Cause it's all I've ever learned to do
I'm always in survival state
No time to breathe, no time to wait
Living on the edge of fight or fleet
I don't know who I am, but I know I'm not free
Always bracing for the fall
But maybe I'm not living at all?
Hands keep shaking, but I hold them still
One more day, one more mountain to will
Smiles like shields, hiding all the cracks
I'm a fortress, but I wish I could turn back
I've been strong so long, I don't know how to break
Every tear I hold is another I fake
Dreams turn to dust in the palm of my hand
This life of survival wasn't what I planned
But I keep moving, can't slow down
Even if I'm spinning round and round
I'm always in survival state
No time to breathe, no time to wait
Living on the edge of fight or fleet
I don't know who I am, but I know I'm not free
Always bracing for the fall
But maybe I'm not living at all?
I've built wall so high, I forgot how to climb
Choking on the words I've swallowed over time
What if letting go is the bravest thing to do?
If I strip it all away, who am I without the bruise?
I can't remember the last time I wasn't afraid
Maybe the strongest thing is asking for grace
I'm always in survival state
No time to breathe, no time to wait
Living on the edge of fight or fleet
I don't know who I am, but I know I'm not free
Always bracing for the fall
But maybe I'm not living at all?
What if survival's not the only way?
Maybe I could learn to live today
What if survival's not the only way?
Maybe I could learn to live today