Letter to Myself Video (MV)

Every day that passes I swear that I'm getting blinder
It's going too fast I need to hit a rewind button
Or something that'll keep me from busting my balls
Going too insane, driving straight up the wall
I done lost my brain, are you here for the fall
Are you here for the autumn, it's hoodie season
I been bleeding dropping straight to the bottom
And I don't need no Topanga I've been banging out of Sodom
And Gomorrah take a tour and you'll never get bored
There's everything to do
Like Benji's in the zoo
Jumanji type of rules
It's a jungle ain't no system
Where's the old Chandler, oh shit you just missed him
Bruce Banner I'm a monster but I'm gaining all the wisdom
Scholarship I pissed it away, I'm tryna get to the bay
And just like Frank, Imma kick back and swim good, swim good
The weight up on the shoulders get heavier than a boulder
And I gave my love to her but I wish I never would have
She take a look at my back, thinking that's a good stab
Wounded, this the last time I swear I'm done with the bullshit
But cool it, I know that I'm capping
If I didn't care I wouldn't be rapping about the people that's hurt me
Maybe they burnt me
Maybe I'm oblivious, someone should alert me
I'm standing at the edge and I know that death is flirting
And I know the end is far, 'cause too many people couldn't
Fathom the fact that I had to end it all just try to escape it
I'm adamant but lack all the self love and images that pop up in my head
Make me wanna say shit
But face it
All the memories I never could erase it
And I know my heart is full but it might just turn to hatred
Feel it goin' sour, but when it's sweet you'll never taste it
But when it's sweet you'll never taste it

I know I'm not alone
I know I got a home
I know I'm getting better with every single step
That I'm taking I'm never faking
'Cause I understand the stakes of everything that I could have
And I'll never get it twisted
Yeah, I'll never get it twisted
I'm building the bandwagon I'll never be sandbagging
And when your folks ask about what happened
You can tell 'em that you missed it
Man, it's real sad I gotta leave you in the past
And the mission could never be clearer
Future been getting nearer
The present is evidently a gift to me
And I could never be worried 'bout someone dirty like you
You tried to lie to me but you ended up curving the truth
I got the herb in the boof
Spitting bout hurt in the booth
The lyrics hit me hard but it can't be worse than you
I can't decide what I'm wanting like a diverse menu
I'm bout to burst into
Some kind of path that I never could see before when I was blinded
It's such a beautiful time and I finally can open up my eyes
It's such a surprise to know that I am alive for reasons better than the mundane
I regret the things that I could never unsay
But I wait for the day that you might be coming my way
And I thank you for being the one to cause all my pain
'Cause I'm a diamond in the rough and when things couldn't tougher
I saw the light and I jumped up and God told me it's all worth it

Tokyo is a story of prophecy
A man who would soon face his greatest fear
Would write fiction of the same events
After the fact, he looks upon his relics that we know as songs
And during his process he brings them along
As reminders of what a good story can do for you