Chan - PEN&PAD Lyrics

Lately my mental been f*cked up I know I look a mess
Even though I feel like shit I stay prayed up I'm so blessed
I don't know why I sit here and let these niggas cause me stress
They not even my type for real they don't remind me of my ex
But I've been holding on
I've been trying to stay strong
He just left me out here on my own
I let him come back whenever he want
But this time Im gone prove him wrong
I know he think I can't let him go
I know he think I can never move on just because I've been stuck for so long
Ima show him and show me too
I think I can do it I just gotta push through
Trust me Im gone make it
All those lonely nights
All those Allegiant flights
Four days and three nights of feeding me a bunch of lies
Then when I land back in Nash you back to not treating me right
I never learned my lesson, time after time
But this time is different, I feel it
I know I said it a hundred times, but now I'm standing on business
I going to try to be more independent
Not rely on him to comfort my feelings, not rely on him for sex even though he the only one I want it
Keeping him at a distance I guess I'll try
Even though he told a thousand lies I still can't get him up out my mind
The one I want here by my side, wanted us to multiply not divide
But I let go of my Kyro so you wouldn't resent me for messing up your life
I'm going to show you
And show me too
I think I can do it I just gotta push through
Trust me Im gone make it
Lately my mental been f*cked up I know I look a mess
Even though I feel like shit I stay prayed up I'm so blessed
I don't know why I sit here and let these niggas cause me stress
They not even my type for real they don't remind me of my ex