chamerion - aspen groves Lyrics

Let go of your hand
Cause I was afraid
But I didn't think that I'd have to let go of you forever
Was it part of a plan
Or a repeating mistake
And a crisis of faith that you had the strength left to get better

Hopeless now
But a day ago your eyes were warm in a way I had never
Witnessed in
This freezing town and if only we fell in love in the summer
Before we crumbled away

Aspen groves
Up on the hilltops
And they're trembling
Like I did
Burning out on a Tuesday night
Far from home
Farther than you were
When you left me
And it sunk in

Will you'll sing me with praise
Or will that makes me feel worse
Will you leave me with questions or closure to bleed out or to process
When the dawn of time breaks
And I'm no more than a history
In your memory, no fragments or flakes of any
Evidence left
But I still carry an ache
That my frail body has learned
Always fighting flying freezing around you
As if preparing for death

Naive then
But was always perceptive
Must have been insane to ever
Tell myself
I was safe from the darkness threatening another winter
Before we crumbed away

Aspen groves
Up on the hilltops
And they're trembling
Like I did
Burning out on a Tuesday night
Far from home
Farther than you were
When you left me
And it sunk in

I should have trusted my intuition
Tell me the truth
Has all of it even been the truth
Was it all out of straw, those oaths you built
And do you turn a blind eye as it all burns
I'll tell you the truth
Though you never cared to know the truth
Did well just so I wouldn't face your guilt
For what's it worth, I want to get worse
What was in it, my state of being
What was in it for me

Aspen groves
Up on the hilltops
And they're trembling
Like I am now
Without the courage to face you after all this time

Aspen groves
Up on the hilltops
And they're trembling
Like I did
Burning out on a tuesday night
Far from home
Farther than you were
When you left me
And it sunk in

I should have trusted my intuition
It was all in my intuition