Census - Sunbeam Lyrics

They say
She's got her life all figured out
A path that's clear, the perfect route
But she still cries at night
She tries to lock away the pain
Despite the storm, she's in the rain
Dancing under the moonlight
Don't say you love her if you don't mean it
Scars on her heart, so she believes it
And she's left asking
Am I crazy, am I crazy
And how can I love if I hate myself
Nestled in your embrace, but I can't be held
Nothing's the same
How could you overlook the trauma I've been dealt
Did you miscalculate the hell that I have felt
And nothing's the same
So where do you get off
A leech in the stream
A vulture that feeds on the weak
You said if we can't trust we have nothing
But you're the one lusting for something with someone new
And she's left asking
How can I love if I hate myself
Nestled in your embrace, but I can't be held
Nothing's the same
How could you overlook the trauma I've been dealt
Did you miscalculate the hell that I have felt
And nothing's the same
I hope you can't sleep at night
I hope you hate yourself
The guilt eats you alive
You feel like you're in hell
I hope it's always there in the back of your brain
That you're a piece of shit with just yourself to blame
I hope you wanna die, but you're stuck on the brink
In a quicksand of lies, but you can never sink
I hope you say her name
I hope you see her face
I hope you rot away in the mess you made
And she's left asking
How can I love if I hate myself
Nestled in your embrace, but I can't be held
Nothing's the same
How could you overlook the trauma I've been dealt
Did you miscalculate the hell that I have felt
And nothing's the same