You still seem so lovely
So heavenly
I can't separate the present you
From the one in memory
A thread of denial
Is woven into me
It's wrapped itself around my heart and
Constricts it visciously
I've wasted so much time
On this unhealthy obsession of mine
Lost in the desert that's across the line
Burning to death, thinking that I'm fine
This has consumed
So much of me
I'm so attached
Despite the misery
But if I'm honest
The feeling's gone
The time has come
For moving on
Deceived by my heart
Blinded as we fell apart
You left me mesmerized
Oblivious and euthanized
Should have known no good would come
From letting my pain grow so numb
I let complacency
Curb my ability
To view objectively
What we had come to be
This has consumed
So much of me
I'm so attached
Despite the misery
But if I'm honest
The feeling's gone
The time has come
For moving on
I won't
Let you toy with me
I won't
Let you destroy me
I won't
Let you toy with me
I won't
Let you destroy me
I won't let you trap me here
Paralyzed by manufactured fear
It's so hard to let you go
You became all I know
This has consumed
So much of me
I'm so attached
Despite the misery
But if I'm honest
The feeling's gone
The time has come
For moving on
It's so cold but I can't stay
This place destroys more of me each day
I'll leave my heart as a souvenir
But I'll reclaim it when my head is clear