Let this fester for hours
Like a zombie I lie
Isolated in darkness
They materialize
Subtly
Creeping in
Vivid reflections begin
Paranoia takes its toll
And I can't escape its control
I know that everything's in my head
Most likely none of this is real
I'll try to make myself believe that
But it won't change how I feel
I
Know
That I am going crazy
Don't
Heed a word I say
I'm
Not
Myself when I'm like this
Ruined my life again today
I can hear my fears whisper
"They're not really your friends"
"Maybe once you meant something"
"But each good thing ends"
"If you would stop holding on"
"One second and they would be gone"
"If you have made one mistake"
"That's all the excuse it would take"
I know that everything's in my head
Most likely none of this is real
I'll try to make myself believe that
But it won't change how I feel
I
Know
That I am going crazy
Don't
Heed a word I say
I'm
Not
Myself when I'm like this
Ruined my life again today
Don't react
This is your burden to bear
Believing the lies won't get you anywhere
But it feels so real...
(So real)
I know that everything's in my head (in my head)
Most likely none of this is real
I'll try to make myself believe that
But it won't change how I feel
I
Know
That I am going crazy
Don't
Heed a word I say
I'm
Not
Myself when I'm like this
Ruined my life again today
I know that I'm doing you wrong
When I get convinced you don't care for me
I'm sorry I don't believe in you
But I cannot believe in myself
I
Know
That I am going crazy
Don't
Heed a word I say
I'm
Not
Myself when I'm like this
Oh God, I wish I weren't this way