CAs - Two Sides of A Memory Lyrics

Why are you still here in my memory
I know you are the enemy and you won't think twice
My diaries are lost pages written for you my mistake was
Thinking that one day you would pull yourself up, up out of the clouds
I know it was foolish, how do you do it
Spent most of my days wasting away
Wasted months of my casualties, my mind ran away from me
You spoke I choke, you made me Plan B
So sad how your 'crazy' kept me steady

It's not the walk alone that pains me
It wasn't love that got away from me
One, two, three chances I gave for free
Move along you've had your way with me

And he says...
I've broken you down so many times and it's not right
I don't deserve you-I know this much
But you do not believe me, think you're calling my bluff, what
Even though you might be right, I won't try and fight
You pull me through but I will not fight for you, it wouldn't be right
A life for another, I'm a million miles from better lets save each other
I spoke, you broke, now you're finally
So mad, you won't even miss me

Now that I walk alone it pains me
You'll always be the one who got away from me
Slipped out of reach so easy
Can we fix this mess I made please

He kept calling but she was already gone