Carol Ades - Free Lyrics

I'm just a baby, still a baby tryna figure it out
My intuition couldn't listen but it's listening now

And I'm hearing me saying it
After years of not saying it
I was drowning in waves of it
Like all of the time
Kissing my sanity
Like shut up Caroline, you aren't crazy
And now I know why

It wasn't easy
It wasn't patient
Having the arrow but not knowing where to aim it
Out in the open
It isn't painless
And it may never be
But this time i get to be free
Free
Free
Free
It isn't free being free
And it may never be

And now I'm sitting on the couch and Lauren's holding my head
Now there's before and there is after that's what she said
And I'm hearing me saying it
After years of not saying it
I was drowning in waves of it
Like all of the time
Kissing my sanity
Like shut up Caroline, you aren't crazy
And now I know why

It wasn't easy
It wasn't patient
Having the arrow but not knowing where to aim it
Out in the open
It isn't painless
And it may never be
But this time i get to be free
Free
Free
Free
It isn't free being free
And it may never be
It may never be
It may never be
At least I get to be free
This time I get to be free
Free

I had to know I'm not alone to let it out
I had to let a little go to feel it now
And when the lonely and the tears come back around
I got my love I got my friends to hold it down

I had to know I'm not alone to figure out
That everything is not my fault somehow
And I am more than when I had to go without
But I won't leave her now
Say you can be my family
And I will hold you close
If someone understands me
Then finally I know