Candor - Helpless Lyrics

I know I shouldn't feel like this
Things should be easier
And I know I should feel fine
But it's that time of night
When I feel the same as I always do
I feel like things are too complicated
Things are too complicated
Oh, it's that time again
Oh, it's that time
If I don't stand for myself
I might fall for just about anyone
I'll try to find me
Why do I feel like this
Like I'm alone in this world
But I'm not quite there yet
I'm not where I want to be
I'm not who I want to see
In my reflection
When will I be
The man I know my mother sees in me
The one my family used to know
The one my father would be proud of
Oh, God I know
I could be so much better that this but
God I can't do this
I am helpless like a deer
Trapped in the headlights
I'm not gonna make it without
Someone's help
Oh now I've seen this all before
It's been so long
Not long enough but
I've seen the signs
And those ever-pressing words
Which I will not mutter
When will I be what my mother sees in me
When will I be a man
Whose dad can say he's proud of me
Like my family used to see in me
And after almost one year on my own
I can finally say that
I am starting to know
What it takes to be a human being
So I've seen this all before
I've seen it in myself