Came the Day of the Heavenly Court - Eternal War Lyrics

I'm alive
I believe that I can save myself
Closing eyes
I see my life
It's useless and avaricious
I open eyes
And understand
That it's not me
I look in mirrors and see not myself
It's a monster in me
Which was invented by hatred
I destroy myself infusing the devil's poison
I dig to myself a grave
I need a help
Because I'm dying
But who will help me?
Only I
I believe
That I'm saved
And I swear
That I will change
F*ck
It's impossible to live
Further so
I don't can
I don't want
Where I'm run
Life is short and we don't appreciate it
I will start everything again
I will not be so
And I can save myself from abyss
From abyss of pain and sufferings
From eternal agony and torments
I can everything
I will be better
And I swear
I will be live
Please
Forgive me my soul
Because how much you have survived
I will be cleansed
I will be expelled
I will return everything on the places
Closing eyes, I see my life
It's useless and avaricious
I open eyes and understand
That it's not me