What a f*cking waste of time
That show was just awful
I could feel that shit corrode my mind
But I'm not at fault, no
Listen, when I sit down, I expect to be
F*cking entertained
But you f*cked up now
And I can't use your damn show as a means of escape
No- I'm not tryna talk about my shit
Listen- Man- I just wanna be honest
Your program made me feel really bad
And I don't watch programs for that
And I'm not gonna admit that it's my shit that I'm tryna run away from, no.
I'm just tryna say that I'm upset that I didn't forget all my problems, oh
Isn't that the whole f*cking point, that I can just watch and abandon the noise
Abandon the inner sanctums of my mind, where I hide all my worries and regrets in life
F*ck!
Man, no- I'm losing my shit.
Like- I'm boutta lose sleep over this
I'm finding myself getting f*cking depressed
And now I'm upset, I'm stressed, I'm a mess
So how am I gonna look you in the eyes
When I feel I've made a waste of my life
And while I'm upset, I'm not that surprised
Cuz I sat and watched all my chances slip by
Honestly it hurts to admit, and owning up breaks my heart
What if I find out I was just scared of failing so much that I didn't start?
But I could just distract myself
I could simply choose to ignore the things that cause me pain
Can I just distract myself?
Blind myself from problems, cross my fingers that they'll go away
I could just-