The Canvas Waiting - Martyr Lyrics

I would like to die a martyr
But some days I don't know which side I'm on

It's been years since I could say that I'm happy right here right now
What a place to be when your life is lived in reverse
One night it hit me like a moving train
And I woke up and realized all the days that I have wasted away

So give me a cause and I will go and start a war
Give me a gun, just tell me who this bullets for
You can bleed me dry even if it takes all night

Where you lost me I couldn't say
But it matters so little now I've got so many other things to keep me awake
If I've let on that I've lost all hope
I apologize I just don't know where to go
If I did I'd be there now

I would like to die a martyr
But some days I don't know which side I'm on

So give me a cause and I will go and start a war
Give me a gun and tell me who this bullets for
You can bleed me dry even if it takes all night
You can bleed me dry