Bury Me Standing - Disconnect Lyrics

There is a wall
There is a disconnect
My fear is real
But it isn't apparent to you all
What is trust, really?
What is the truth?
I don't really know
Part of me does not care anymore
Why does this happen to me
When there is no reason
My nightmares still haunt me to this day
I can not control the reality
Paralyzation hits
All I can do
Is pray to wake
Pray to wake
To know that it won't go away
Is the most terrifying of it all
But I can't speak of it
Because then it comes alive
I don't know if I'd rather pretend
That it doesn't exist
Or if I should take it straight on
Through it all it does not matter
Does not matter
Disconnect
Disconnect
Disconnect
Disconnect
All I know is that it happened
I don't know if I can ever fully trust again
You all will never know
That I am am truly alone
I'm truly alone
This wall is real
The gates are sealed