Bucket - All Hail Lyrics

Nobody knows me
I can't trust anyone anymore
I can't get out of bed anymore
My future now looks even grimmer than before
Would you rather be a slave to yourself
Where you'd push away all necessary help?
Everyone is scared of going to hell
But no one sees that we're in it right now can you not tell?
I breathe air that someone else breathes out
I do things I know full well I'm not allowed
I'm addicted to pain and I could use an intervention
I would kill myself but that's a cry for attention
Upload my brain to the cloud run clean my mac
Wash out all the nasty shit I've thought about and load it back
I've pushed everyone away who gave me a chance
Can never wash away the filth that stains my hands
Why am I so incapable, burn me alive
Cause if life is inescapable I can't die
Sunk in my bed when I awaken, I know today I'll fail
The chances I could have taken, all hail
I can't breathe I can't speak I can't think nothing's real
Put my fist in the wall, broke a nerve at least I can't feel
Control me I don't wanna have to end myself
Believe in a myth if that's my bad mental health
I can't scream
I can't scream
I can't scream
I'm a joke
Tiny, puny, rotten
So I lash out violence
Yet soon I'm forgotten
So I loath in my pity and I scream from the inside
No one to hear my calls anyways
It's the pits in which I hide
I'm like a dartboard stabbed for another players points
And when they know the scores I'm left with holes wounds pains in my joints
And it turns and it turns and it turns and it turns
And I can't scream
Why am I so incapable, burn me alive
Cause if life is inescapable I can't die
Sunk in my bed when I awaken, oh
Oh god
(Help me)