Buckaroo - i don't remember seeing this thing Lyrics

I've been thinking, laughing, smiling at the times when we all cared
Looking back I wish we sat down in the old maple wood chair
Time is gone
It's all gone
I was raised in a small home built on my Mama's broken dreams
Just like the rest of us we pretend that its not what it seems
Our dreams are gone
The dream is gone
Sorry if I rubbed you wrong I know you expect more from me
Because you're new to my life doesn't mean that you know what I see
Chills have come
The chills have come, oh
You should have seen your face when I got in the car to drive off
Little did we both know that would be the last place I would stop
Now I'm gone
I am gone, oh
You thought you had forgot
How you ran away from me
And now it's runnin'
In the back of your mind
Keep on walkin', stalkin' your next guy
With a scythe in your hand
I know you're waiting to take my time, isn't that what you planned
Water those roses on the front of my grave
When did this light become this damn bright
Its always been that way
I don't remember seeing this thing
In the night or the day
I miss the darkness of my rosewood coffin
Why am I here
Do you know?
Is it clear?
Tell me what to do
Can I stop thinking of you?
I don't know, I don't know
Hold me by the hand and your wish is my command
Can I go?
I don't know