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Face my demons all alone
Tryna find my spirit on my own
Feelin like a kid but Im grown
Tired of feelin left out in the cold

Reminisce when I was 13 little kid who didnt know shit
Wanted to give my girl the world but old wounds wouldnt let me in
Gave her all my love but she only ever doubted shit
When I just had about enough said f*ck it Ill just slit my writs
Late night, home alone, steak knife on the kitchen counter
Contemplating should I stay? Or take the easy way out
Step bro came home early just as the blade approached my skin
Made sure no one knew just how close I was to ending it
13 years later thinkin Im a king whose conquered death
Turns out old wounds fester and feast the best when left stuck in neglect
Found out the hard way through pain and heartache
Reacquainted with the blade thinkin I could taste the reapers breath
Once again Im home alone but this time theres incisions made
Dont even know what stopped me hard to think it was my dying faith
Now Im practically a wraith recalling my old wicked ways
Theres gotta be a better way to cope than permanent escape
I hope for peace and better days cause now Im in a better place
Even through the struggles day by day the pain will fade away
Day by day the pain will fade away

Face my demons all alone
Home is where the heart is but when youre lost and all alone
Tryna find my spirit on my own
And your heart is feelin hopeless which direction is home
Feelin like a kid but Im grown
Home is where the heart is but when youre lost and all alone
Tired of feelin left out in the cold
And your heart is feelin hopeless which direction is home

Preyed upon my innocence like I was built for sin
Im wide awake inside this hell screamin from within
Ill never be the same, youre the one to blame
Im haunted by a ghost of you even though its not my shame
Only six years old when I was told to keep a secret
One that lasts a lifetime harbored by my regret
A deviant dwelling on the pain, you can always rinse the surface but the stain will remain
Aint that the truth, that motherf*ckin quotes got me dead on a noose
Black and blue from acts of abuse
Im a f*ckin survivor bitch, SVU
The worlds a dark place and Im living proof but you can find the light and imma prove that too
Cause bloody and bruised are the heels that tread this path
Ive left this road a crimson image that represents my past
Once I was empty now Im full just half a glass
Like Bob Marley taught me dont worry just smoke some grass
So rewind, be kind and give it time cause it will all be for the best
And if you make it to the end of life then count yourself blessed
Then count yourself blessed

Face my demons all alone
Home is where the heart is but when youre lost and all alone
Tryna find my spirit on my own
And your heart is feelin hopeless which direction is home
Feelin like a kid but Im grown
Home is where the heart is but when youre lost and all alone
Tired of feelin left out in the cold
And your heart is feelin hopeless which direction is home