Brightsides - Lovesick Lyrics

I lost my innocence
In the way most good things are lost
Without noticing and in a hurry to move
Quicken my breath thinking the next step
Will open my heart and fix what is left

And I imagined it perfect
But perfect is dead
How was I to know that I'm broken

Lovesick again
Which way is the best
I can't find my way
Am I my heart or my head
Which way is the best
If I'm not right this is dead
Don't want my lust to control us
Afraid because every time I try to live selfless
I end up selfish instead

I lost my way again
In between the lines
The ones that start at friend
But end in oneness
I said here's a line I won't bend
Now there's been a change in perspective

I want to seek giving instead of my own gaining
The lines that we're painting are blurry but painted
I love it but I'm lovesick

Lovesick again
Which way is the best
I can't find my way
Am I my heart or my head
Which way is the best
If I'm not right this is dead
Don't want my lust to control us
Afraid because every time I try to live selfless
I end up selfish instead

I don't wanna die alone abandoned
Because that's where I'm heading if the self wins
I think I recognize that lust is broken
It's a quick fix I want what's real

Our hearts are strange machines
Pumping blood with the same disease
Even in the most honest of gestures
We find darkness inside
I want better love than the stuff I was born with
A conscience that doesn't justify my self-seeking ways
To be transformed again

I'm living with a broken heart
So my emotions are the liars
But now I'm praying for another start
So I don't end up buried alive
In my own fires
In my own fires

(Not another love but a greater love)
So I'm counting on patience instead
(Change my heart greater love)
To be worth it and right in the end
I need new love
Greater love