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We kissed by the car
At 2 in the morning
You offered your flannel
When I was shivering
I never took up the offer
I never wanted anything to stick around
I made a mistake
It's always that way

You asked if it was okay to like me,
Like a middle school kid,
You held my face in your hands
Like it mattered
It didn't
I just needed something boring and stable
You have a predictable schedule
I just wanted a taste not a meal

At least, that's what you think I think
You play my words through Daedalus' maze
A mobius strip of of my lips on your neck
A reason for you to forgo regret
You've failed at grief before
Like a eucharist you've forgotten the ritual for
You stand instead of kneel, you taste my body but you say the wrong prayer in my ear
You said "we don't get want we want"
But boy I knew, or are we trading scars
Cause a bathtub isn't blood
And I never claimed it was

So I met his parents on our first date
And you just bury notes on my windshield
And claim it's the same
But it ain't

Can I still love you?
Can I still live?
Can we still be friends?
What would you give,
To keep making the same jokes
To make strange sounds
To feel the cracks in my throat
And I believe you are everything
I never will actually need