Brian Hartt - Homecoming Lyrics

I got friends getting married and buying a house
Ask me how we got here I cannot tell how
But I hope to wake up tomorrow on Thomas's porch
Hung over and stale but I make my way to church
To see my mother and father and even my sister
I can't say it now but she knows that I missed her
When I see you all at homecoming I won't know what to think
We're all rearranging deck chairs on a boat about to sink
All the cool kids from school are all drunk in the gutter
I have a bed and job but am I really much better
I take five pills a day to keep my demons all at bay
And I write it all down to pretend I am sane
I'm getting used to funerals and seeing friends in pain
But my suit is getting worn, so I guess I can't complain
When I see you all on homecoming night, we're prisoners decked out in christmas lights
To distract us from the chains that brought us all back here tonight
I don't think it's our fault that we all get home and drink
And I don't think it's on us that we try to swim but always sink
That we're too deep in debt to keep the needle from our arm
To consider the legalities of smoking in park
But here we are back home left to carry all the weight
Cause you're never really far from the good old garden state
When I see you all at homecoming, I'll smile at the ways that we have aged,
And i didn't miss you then and I never will but that's okay
Because it's homecoming and nothing much has changed