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Written in this paradise
All I got is memories
Why I keep on losing people who was best for me
Why I keep on fighting stress it never ease on me
Lord knows I been praying for the best but shits been hurting me
Can't you see I'm hurting from the scars I need some healing
Coping with the drugs to hide the pain I never feel it
Sometimes I lose my mind I need to stop I think I'm tripping
I don't know just how long I can play this game I need a minute
This the life that I been living
They gave me cards I had to deal em
That's what it takes to be a real one
But they label me a villain
They say I'm cold so I been chilling
I guess a nigga don't have feelings
Man I'm higher than a ceiling
Am I drowning am I swimming
This pain it got me on a million
Brian it got me out my missions
Now I questioned my decisions
It's like I'm losing to the vision
This the life that I been living
With this pain I need some healing
They left me stranded in the village
Demons wanna kill my image
I know they waiting for the finish
But they can't kill me if I'm winning
They can't kill me if I'm in it
This my life and I been sinning
Can't see the end or the beginning
I been feeling I'm a menace
I been feeling no resentment
But this the life that I been living
Written in this paradise
All I got is memories
They say I move with no intentions
Why I'm making all these enemies
Why my people won't be friends with me
I face the mirror and I start to see
Tell me is it destiny
Or am I cursed cause it's been hard to breathe
My soul been hurting shit been hard for me
I lost a couple parts of me
The more I look this shit was hard to see
The more I climb it's like they stopping me
Cant you see I'm hurting from the scars I need some healing
Coping with the drugs it hide the pain I never feel it
Sometimes I lose my mind I need to stop I think I'm tripping
I don't know just how long I can play this game I need a min
I been dealing with this pain it got me feeling so low
Lord I think I'm lost I'm just tryna get home
Can't you hear me cries I been stuck on my own
Lord this life is changing am I losing my home
This the life that I been living
They gave me cards I had to deal em
That's what it takes to be a real one
But they labeled me a villain
They say I'm cold so I been chilling
I guess a nigga don't have feelings
Man I'm higher than a ceiling
Am I drowning am I swimming
This pain it got me on a million
Brain it got me out my missions
Now I question my decisions
It's like I'm losing to the vision
This the life that I been living
With this pain I need some healing
They left me stranded in the village
Demons wanna kill my image
I know they waiting for the finish
But they can't kill me if I'm winning
They can't kill me if I'm in it
This my life and I been sinning
Can't see the end or the beginning
I been feeling I'm a menace
I been feeling no resentment
But this the life that I been living